life goes on...

2011-03-03T16:09:00.001+08:00

I was reading a friend's blog when i remembered how peotic writing
can be. it's like i've forgotten how literature is like. how words can
flow from a peron's mind into a piece of writing. it's a talent that i
guess i don't have. more like, i don't have the skills to express myself
or my thoughts as well. to piece a sentence is becoming harder and
harder for me. i pride myself for being able to speak well but when the
time comes for me to argue or to fluently express myself, i'm impaired.
in the heat of the moment all i can reply is silence.
well, i do have other reasons for not rebutting
or arguing. especially when it isover petty things, i find that arguing
is pointless. each time i look at people arguing, again for the wrong
reasons, they all look so.. ugly
last, and probably my biggest concern, i don't want to look stupid.
haha

of course, there are just some people who can charasmatically argue
their way around and simply win you over with their logic and oratal
(is there such a word?) skills.
take hitler for instance. or my tutorial group members. hehe

i should write more. sadly, with all the readings and essay assignments
that i've been doing, i'm beginning to lose all my interest in writing and
finding it hard to start on one.

mehh
(lost for words? hehe)

2009-12-05T19:17:00.003+08:00

and i still spent money to watch new moon. but it was to spend time with friends haha. ;]
nvm la, still good, can see taylor lautner's abs super defined. haha. and finally found a shop in singapore that sells moonstone jewellery! usually they only sell the basic gems and opals. but damn sia. just realised that the ring that bella (kristen) wears all the time in the movies is a moonstone ring. rainbow moonstone if im not wrong. damn. later if i buy pple will think im in love with twilight. duhh im not.

2009-11-30T18:36:00.002+08:00

KITTENSSSSS!

born at the fifth floor of my block hehe. cant adopt them. mom wont let. auntie came to my hse in the morn to ask if i wan them. sadded. went sch, played tennis for the (maybe) last time. boring coz alone. kena pangseh-ed by mira. went jp and looked fer prom dress fer burp. veryy hard sia. but damn fun with joycelyn too. ate. went again. burp got scared of the persistant saleswoman who cannot speak english other than the phrase "try ah. try ah. very nice. very nice". haha. finally got one and then met jan. thanks babe! oh yeah kena pangseh-ed by mun heng this time. went to vcd shop. no point fer me. dvd player broken. homed.

and you said you felt it was easier to be forgotten and left behind. but yet.

2009-11-29T16:26:00.002+08:00

life is honestly a bore after everything. like seriously, i'd rather sleep and sleep and sleeep now. i usually wake up no earlier than 3pm haha. but hey, dreaming is nice! just today i dreamt that i could see ALL the stars from where i was, the MOON! haha. its pretty random, especially since i just had to clap and all the dark sky wld clear and i can see all the stars and the meteor showers and then the aliens and planets. well the aliens started fighting, explosions and all, so i clapped again to cover the sky again. haha. so random

well i cld have seen that at the meteor shower recently. but hey, you cant see bursting alien ships when you look up the sky! haha

but anywawyyy, at least i managed to have some great dates recently! with ilyanti and melissa!! lovely lovely

cant believe i went all the way to bishan to go "jogging" with nab. but hey, good thing was, there was this cuteeeeee guy there! well, didn have my specs and cldnt see him at first. but needed to ask for directions so, tap tap "heyy, do you know how to get to bishan harmony park?" haha. and nab was like thinking " dayahh are you serioussss" coz i just randomly tappedthat guy. but thennnn. noticed his feature and hell! he's got japanese eyesssss, slightly malay look but obviously chinese and haha overall just cute! sounds totally singaporean tho haha. so we took the "four and one", no "four one zero, WHITE" bus there. lovely time just "jogging" and camwhoring. lots of laughs at nab's weirdness - called the sky the "ceiling", a crane a "seagull" etc. and yeah, any exercise we did was offset by the PASTAMANIA we had! haha. super cheesy adn creamy day! went her hse to try clothes and then homed. lovely lovely. we still gots loads to do tgt!! got a whole list! haha

then time with mel. cant believe we still can hang out and spend time tgt easily. breakfast at long johns! talked abt so many things. stupid of me to try my boots coz i still cant really tahan heels. haha. went arnd jp for a couple of hours and mann. she shopped a lot! haha! like every shop we went to sure got buy smth! haha. damn. forgot to take pics! oh wells. she's havin fun at her cruise! not fair! ;[

currently the upcoming events seem kinda dull. not much to do. still gots dates with somefriendsthatmightjustpangsehmeandiftheydoi'llkillthem. haha. i wanna watch a movie! watched new moon online alr (im NOT gonna spend money on that movie) anyone up for 2012 or.. wait wads coming up ah? oh yeah! i wanna watch m fantastic fox and the informant! and i wanna go escape sia, how long has that been? haha

oh wells. must clear cupboard tmw.

2009-11-20T22:08:00.003+08:00

A LEVELS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! for me at least. haha

but then again, i dun really feel the euphoria of afterexams right now. each time after any paper, i can only feel... hunger. haha. it was only history's first paper when i really got that great feeling of excitement. well, thats prolly coz that was the only paper that i was excited to finish. well, now its kinda dead. unlike most people, i dun really have a list of things i wanna and gonna do after my As. yanah keeps asking "wad are you gonna do after As? how long is your list??" I DUNNO MANN. not like its the end of the world and we gotta do all we need to.

plus i gots nos moneys.

and my laptop's dead.

sucks

but gg out with retna,weiyi and charm was great! totally recommend DOMINO'S PIZZA! the cinnamon bread is like woahhhhh and its pretty reasonable too. at Bukit Timah. and haha! trying to play QUESTIONS ONLY like in Whose Line Is It Anyways was hilarious! great game to play with friends and family! i totally RECOMMEND it! haha and its at 130am on mondays, tuesdays, thurs and fri nights. love love. the bloopers are even better ;] "i smell like condiments!"

on a different note

ok fine nvm.

sad.

2009-07-13T00:59:00.002+08:00

wooo.. bdae gone liaoz. haha.

mann, honestly, i was pretty sad on my bdae. thought at least ONE person might sms me on midnight... or in the morning you know?.. slept feeling sad coz no msgs.. woke up for a while and still no msgs... so sad... then haha, woke up at like 12 pm? or smth.. and STILL no msgs. was getting pissed. coz overslept plus no msg.. and thennnn

drum rollsssss

gots an idea! switch off phone. switch on phone.

SUDDEN INFLUX OF MSGS IN GREAT NUMBERS!
or
SIAO! MY PHONE JUST GOT SPAMMED!

haha. stupid phone. but the day before and after my bdae were more memorable ;]

delifrance with delta was great mann! was totally random (just got to know like in the morn? wasnt even invited ;[ ) and before that i managed to surprise tommy first! ;] haha! we seriously should have brought a CGS school yearbook or smth sia! coz i was like freaking LOST most of the time. come on! i'll be lucky if i can name all my classmates after not meeting them for a year, much less the rest of CGS! haha. only ONE of my pics turned out okayy and that's with my PARTNER SHERMAIN! ;]]]

ok nvm. cant upload. grr

bdae day boring. got a little sick in the afternoon so slept again. wonder why my nose keeps bleeding recently. oh wells.

then SATURDAY with delta AGAIN! goshhh twice a week! quite smth hor? haha. but SEttlers' was GREAT mannnnn haha. the guy with big specs kinda looked like Mr Hendri! haha but he was cute! always see him eye-ing our table when we were making so much noise over the damn JUNGLE JUMBLE thingy! haha! Gad is Epic one la. its like the whole table will be damn quiet for a while before she can realise all the bones are gone! haha! and Cherie got FORFEIT!

"I'll do this only ONCE!"

hahahahahahah! poor waiter! the games were interesting! nothing beats jungle jumble i thikn. closest was the.... panda orchestra thingy? haha! and well... for some reason im the ALIEN. WHYYYYYYY I DONT GET IT!!!!! I DIDNT PUSH DOWN THE DAMN DUSTBIN ON PURPOSE DAMMIT! AND THAT WAS IN SEC ONEEEEEEEE EHHH! shesh!!! hahahaha. mann. of all the things to be remembered for siaaaa.

oh yea my skirt (omg i wore a skirt! well gad wore a DRESS!) got caught on the elevator! ;[ managed to trick wangjin and cherie that it was designs tho haha!

sighhhh

nice nice ;]

i dunno how to describe how happy i am. like seriously, each time i go for delta outing, its always great! well the ending always a bit uhhh coz we just cant find a place to take pics! haha. kinda makes me forget wadeva shit that i might be gg thru. and allows me to treasure the moment. maybe its coz i dont see these pple often? if i did, wld it be less special? haha. wadeva it is, i love these outings.

oh goshh i miss mira! happy bdae too babe! ;]]

2009-06-25T17:27:00.003+08:00

oh mann. school's starting soon. and midyears coming directly. wad day is it today? oh right, its thursday, 4 freaking days to hist paper. 5 days to lit paper. 6 days to econs paper. thats not even a week!

glad for june hols tho ;] didnt do much but study and occasionally go out. had a great time playing tennis with syira tho! hehe. aw shit my phone's screwed. nvm abt that. slept too much i think, must have lycanthropy or smth.

and i met ILYANTI!! and GUESS WADDD! she's OVERWEIGHT! haha! like finally! hahhah! but she doesnt look like it! thx for the gifts babe ;]

goshhh. i cant help but to feel this way. this paradox.

My Innocent Decadence.

how can it seem so right and innocent? deep inside i know its all wrong. but it was so natural and comfortable. naturally comfortable. comfortably natural. but it was. can it stay this way, just a bit longer? but isn't that just the same as denying reason? there are so many 'but's.

then again, it could mean nothing.

as you were.

2009-04-24T21:38:00.003+08:00

too long a time can make things to be forgotten yet the irony that kills is that those you do not want to remember is remembered, and those you should have held dear slowly goes away.

WAHLAU WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I BLOGGED SIA??? HAHAHAHAHA

ok that sounded more like me! ok let see.. AYLC, OC09, INVESTITURE, WZLC1 09. Details? LAZY!

but life has been.. hmm.. at first stress, then great, then mundane, then super mundane then now? quite boring BUT FINALLY AFTER ALL THIS, I REDISCOVERED Nur Hidayah as she was before! haha! back in time when yellow was her fav colour, fighting was her main hobby, running and sprinting was her forte =)))

somehow, in its own way, life is great ;] prolly coz i cant really remember bad stuff often ;] Fun with Whoosh Ah Co. , my fighting buddies! J and J ;] i dunno la, thats all i can think of now. haha!

a numbed heart stirred,
it beats after it bled,
the songs to be heard,
waiting to be read.

2008-12-30T23:14:00.002+08:00

oh goshh! lotsa hings have happened and i always never update! haha. did i say i finally met Mira? i didnt? oh yeah then. i FINALLY met Amirah bte Harith! (wah sounds like some celeb siaa) haha. it was great mann. lots of things may happen in a span of ten years, like few years of not talking to one another, being enemies at one point. but then, all the way at the end, we still stick together. and yeah, we're just too used to one another that secrets can be so easily shared. haha. it was nice. just eating at Long Johns and talking fer how long? as long as Johns.hahaaa LAME.

oh yeah... had a family outing! nice nice! BOWLING MANN haha! 3 strikes eh!! haha. yeah.. good food. annoying sisters. haha! nice la ha? then bought new jeans! hehehehe. men's jeans some more eh. better cut fer me maaa.

and yeah, WENT OUT WITH NABILAH! hahahaha! gosh like seriously! we only meet each other ONCE A YEAR mann! always at the dec hols. its like countable times. i remember. i think the first one when we were sec 3... we went fer EOY Cosplay Event at Expo. Last year we watch Deathnote and shopped a bit. This year was Twilight and shopping! oh gosh... i owe you a lot of money mann.. sorry! haahaha! shall pay back asap! Twilight was nice! haha but yeah, love exists only in fairytales haha

then wahh.. now we're like chionging for OC! hahah The OC! its fun! i dunno la. as in... i am always very tired to get to sch early. and like ytd, i didnt sleep at all and i was so tired when i came to sch. but then when i see Valeons around, somehow my spirit gets lifted! then some more, retarded ideas came. wah... once im excited ah, no one can stop me mann! i'll interrupt, i'll jump, i'll blurt out all the retarded (tho not always reasonable, rationale nor useful) ideas and such! haha. sorry to the seniors and tk coz i always cant stop myself from interrupting! haha. but im not even in games! IM ADMIN-ER! and guess wad! all the Malay Regimen - Howsun pple are in diff comms! hahaha. mann i wanna learn proper admin. hahaha.. but shall help games fer a while ahha.

and yeah HAPPY BIRTHDAY chicken-pox-ed SYIRA!!!! hahaha. come back soon! we all miss you! ad we still need to go Masak-masak, Make-up2, Transformers movie and all that! haha! NO MATTER WAD, WE MUST HOR! ahhaha

mann... where did all my no4s go?

2008-12-16T18:26:00.002+08:00

mann. im such a lazy ass. and damn, i think ill look freaky! ive got TWO cat bags, a cat pencil case and.. some cat toys! yeah! most were gifts! i still rmbr my clay cat, made by Shermain my partner! where the hell are u mann.. haha! well ive always wondered if i can have A HUGE collection of cat stuff! everythnig cats! but cannot la ha. too retarded alr. if i do that, ill look like my uncle that has hell of a lot of duck stuff at his hse. it can get freakaayyee..

gg out with mel was sweet! mann. i love letters! thx babe ;] and yeah! madagascar2 too! but then jan and jer, i hnoestly think sporeans shld dress up more often. hahahaahah.

goshh. coffee's been giving me headaches mann.

dance has been great too. tiring shit. getting harder by the second. but i love it! haha. mann. reminds me of MALLAAAYYY haha. and speaking of that, upon reading mira's blog abt thailand and the rural areas and the peace she got akin to the times she was in jj (eng sucking here), i thot of jj too! as in a theme for jj orientation! KAmpung Jurong! haha. but yeah,... nvm... haha!

~*~

it's very clear now. it was just a big joke, a play, and the curtains have been drawn. i'm no longer staring at the empty stage, so into the character that i forgot myself. now, take off your mask and face me. unless the mask you're wearing is yet a mask of another. even so, let it be since that is how it always is.

"i'm giving up neither," the dancer said.

2008-11-24T20:17:00.004+08:00

whooo! had fun todayy! hehe. had a run which i walked all the way. coz i was with janice maaa. tmw i run la ha. anyway jan said walking burns off more calories anyways. haha. then after that malay regimen tgt! actually howsun shldnt count but nvm. we were all wearing bikila too! triple telepathy la hahah. then wwoottss! i got presents frm pple frm yunnan! i dunno who got me the bag la but THANK YOU SO MUCHIEEEEE!! HAHAH! really love it! same with alyssa's hp pouch lei ahha! LOOKIE!

and the navy blue rose there was frm SYIRA!!! THANK YOUUUU! haha. aiya.. navy blue, in the dark it looks black la haaa.. haha!

and yeah, the petals were coming off. pulled it apart a bit to make it look bigger but made it worse i think. and i cant capture the pic well. nvm ah!

anyway this was pretty random but i just had to post it. in spore there arent a lot of places where its serene and like yeah.. but it can be found if u noe where to look fer it. this was frm the corporation rd the corporation pri there. very nice clear field. can see the sky and everything. its always gd to take a walk. mann. i seriously hope that they dont build a lot of stuff there. not even a park. its nice and calming as it is. hai...

man.. nice nice dayy ;]

2008-11-23T15:28:00.003+08:00

CREZ MUSICAL EVENING was pretty dissappointing

i really hate trying to look fer clothes mann. and then to be gg "waaaddd" as i look at how informal the others were wearing afterr that. i dun mind the angklung. i think my sis looked pro compared to the rest. but hell! dont hold FIVE ANGKLUNGS can??? like thats so suicidal. choir was. erm. nostalgic? coz they sang one same song before as two yrs ago. and they wore the same damn costume! as in.. come onnnn! wah piang im bitching so much. haha. but man.. really la. but i like the conductors dress! nice! then dance. erm. you call that hiphop??? wow. under which dictionary's defination sia? haha. my sis and i had a lot of laughs. haha. thruout the whole thing la. haha. this time round, the theme was Mama Mia. better than HSM i must say. and yeah. who chose the MCs? goshh. and yeah of course the 50th Annivesary was a lot grander and formal. Esplanade ma..haha. glad they didnt do the Gimme a C! wadeva tradition there. in sch hall can la but there cannot eh? but they did the hiphiphoorayAH! that one when it ended and everyone was leaving. piercing sia.

meeting that stick thin idiot was fun too! bony sia she. after that go that prata place. wah. i so malu siaaaaaaaaaa. my cousin had to lend me coins to go home. wahhhh. maluuu.

wah. how nostalgic. i havent gone back fer a long time. guess im really different than how i was before. how i miss the sound of a solid bang. haha. how i miss the rifles' smell. haha! how i miss the beret. how i miss cheering. i miss pt! hahah! oh boy.. endurance and determination delta!

when the cold wind blowwwwww
when the cold wind blowwwwww

2008-11-22T15:13:00.002+08:00

mann.. long time nvr blog... lotsa stuff happened and ive almost forgotten. haha. lets see

we had the workshop! pretty interesting pple ive met! got their numbers and pics! haha. cool cool. wish i had a turn on the flying fox and abseiling tho. haha. i was like the coordinator/ runner/ fac! haha. fun funn

then wad ah?

wah piang eh! wait fer 1.5hrs fer hist then say next day! wahlau! grrr

thennn....

oh yeah! sent them off! popeyes so ex! grr. but in the end, even tho eat at the food court, i still nvr cab home. Cheat is so fun! i wanna play some more! haha! then Werewolves was interesting too! Chingkit must be the best narrator ever la ha! And Dom showed me his cute face before gg!!! i noe that u noe that ure cute la dom! dun act shy ah! hahahaha! cldnt help but to go "KYAAAaaaa!!" hahaha! then trying to hear wad they were saying thru the glass was funny too! and yeah, gentlemen are rare in Spore man.. but Jia Cheng is one! minus his vulgarities of course. haha! wah played Werewolves until we were so sian ah... wah the ride home. everybody just died la. dun care other passengers. hope Yunnan was gd ;]

then hmm.

had Code Geass marathon! 2 seasons of arnd 24-25 eps in TWO DAYS! haha! wah. cldnt move on to Gundam 00 after that.

oh yeah! then had dance! wah dance dance dance. very fun eh! bonding time after that was great! that day we spent 2 hrs after dance just crapping man! Kak Mas had A LOT of exeprience seyyy. haha! then they left, and i talked to Shazni fer the first time. like just talk talk. weird, enlightening and... erm.. fun? talk? hahahah. cool. then the next dance session we went Teh TArik fer lunch. ghost stories and all. quite freaky man, wad happened to kak mas's cousin. haha she belanja us drinks and i was like "dont! here ex one!" haha.

i think i screwed both my revision papers tho i think i did okayy fer econs.. haiya dun care. haha

dammit. gotta lose weight. dun wannnnnnnnnnnnnn

and yeah to Valeons:

WELCOME BACK TO SINGAPORE! SORRY NEVER GET YALL ANYTHING! XDDDDDDD

2008-10-27T17:19:00.002+08:00

woohoo.. sat and sun was niceeee. wah my vocab damn pathetic can.. but when i say its nice, i mean it! haha. nvmmm... anw sat the yunnan pple came la... and so me, egoh, jeremy, jj, shiva (and jasper) made up the TEAM C!!! hhaha... hung arnd the avac pt often and well, didnt do much but to talk abt PLW. but played fer a while! come on pple! dont u know how the game HP and MRT works?? haha. Jessica is merciless siaaa... played ClingCling too! joined in another grp and yes, saw BENJAMIN AKA GARRICK'S BRO/TWIN/CLONE/WADEVA! haha. for pics, go to Syira's blog. but really! just joined and suddenly i said to Syira

Me: Syira... is it just me or does that guy.. like side view.. look like..
Syira: GARRICK RIGHT??

hahahahah! but yes, i agree that Garrick is more handsome. possibly more sick minded too! but then again, we dont really know this regent person! haha!

then sundayyy. watch HSM3 with welfareee. gosh mann.. i didnt know we were gonna split after the movie man!! so basically i was stuck alone at PS. called a lot of pple but yeah... bleahh.. bought a VERY colourful notebook tho! (which i left in egoh's bag ;p) then made my way to jp. i didnt know they were gonna wear baju kurung! at least i wasnt looking so Apek like Junjie and Dom! haha! Dom completed the look with newspaper sia! haha. and yeah... i made them take the wrong bus.. hehe... finally got to Burp's hse! watch the first movie! Pocong la.. i dun like!! Actually not scared any more coz after that movie we watch the Spoof one! haha.

Very funny la the whole movie coz of the company. as in the scary one. hahhaha. ok cannot describe la. and Burp says she's innocent when she made us watch it sia.. haha! then eat eat. watch movie again.. haha. had to have Syira accompany me go down the lift. heheheeheee... i dun like it coz ill start imagining things sia. haha. but i still wanna watch! haha! at least im not like Jocelyn can! she cover her eyes with a translucant plastic cup.. like that helps! haha! and yeah. after that got lost fer a while coz all the damn blocks look the same, in the dark some more! haha. got home one hr late ... hahah

and now im just wasting my time... sry nablah! bleahh..

2008-10-23T22:50:00.002+08:00

gahh! youtube finally works! haha!

didnt go sch today. had that same headache again. wonder why its coming back... used to come only when smth bad's gonna happen. wadeva it is, it ALWAYS makes me in my pissed-off mode. so sorry to jeremy, dom, jessica and whoever that may have seen my pissed-off face. seriously, its just my headache. haha! dun ask me why i get so pissed la.. maybe its because of the pain? dunno...

anyway sports carnival was funnn.. very the hot la but being at the avac pt wtih everyone was fun! chori chori also! and my class played soccer! got 4th! haha! dun ask me to play soccer mann, ill never get the damn ball in! haha. then ops room again.. pissed off mode fer a while... then wad ah? homed? oh yeah.. wah.. just died again...

then ytd was nice too! coz went Window Walking with the "Womaniser" again! WW. Double U. Double U Double U. So thats Four Us, Double Double Us or W sq! hahah! ok lame la... haha! went to the same places again but it was fun! laughed at the "Cars" toy that got so boring! Him trying to convince me to buy the damn Gundam thing that costs 100 bux plus! haha! gosh.. Garrick's wife will be damn poor thing sia.. coz he intends to buy hell of a lot of toys fer his children! swords la.. microscopes also... haha! and he wants to name his children "iamhandsome" or "iamsexy" in another language.. goshh.. and the part where he went to the hello kitty box and went "eh.. u my friend must buy me this. eh wads this ah?" hahaha! and "aiyo.. we keep walking more inside.. eh wads that?" haha! and yeah! ice cream was a bit the... erm.. pathetic but nice lor. that trip reminded me that there used to be a shop that sold real swords.. hmm... gone liao.. then came back, dinner-ed with Snr Chian Lim (spl?) who treated us! nice!

oh wells, sacrifice one thing for another. ;]

oh yeah! deleted hell of a lot of stuff frm my com. all the pics of how many yrs ago.. not that sad. but can smbody tell me how to change to administrator?? i cant delete the damn "Science Discovery" and "Step Ahead" stuff frm my com! haha. but seriously, im annoyed. haha

deleted. cool.

and wow.. old songs do bring back memories! nostalgiaaaaa haha

back to work and bleach then! wonder how tmw will beeeeeeeeeeee.....

2008-10-20T22:57:00.002+08:00

nice nice;]

tiring but nice. shesh la, my arms and legs are aching sia... but niceee. lotsa things happened but lazy to write every single details. learnt some stuff. sadly, not exactly avac stuff.. im screwed fer aylc. doubt i can even go right now.. guess i have to forgo south korea if i wanna go there. funny la, my mom always says "china again??" whenever i say abt gg overseas like SK even tho ive gone china only once. wadeva la...

anyway hmm. weird la. i think thats the only way to describe an emotionless feeling. basically thats not even a feeling. ice ice ice

i really dont want to cause bad things to happen. thats stupid, who does? hmm. not that its really happening due to that right? some things that i cant understand.

Moon Meeting Sun

A faint brushstroke of hills
in the distance. The sun waning
in the fialments of trees.

On the other bank the moon
coming alive. The mind is tipsy
at the equipoise.

Boey Kim Cheng

nice right? from Another Place.

Syira, take careee horrr

Howsun, Happy Birthday!! ;]

2008-10-05T20:59:00.002+08:00

leaders' camp was alright. slept for 16 hrs after i got home haha. gosh. im bored now. keep getting bored now. like just now, i got so bored i started drawing crap. pw's a bore. any happiness seems short-lived. dunno why but i cant get high. played with swings but got sleepy after a while. met delta but got bored. wonder why all my energy's gone from me. got very quiet just now also. weird la. bleahh.

i wanna watch eagle eye.

so miniscule, plain insignificant and stupid to the point of boredom.

2008-09-30T00:06:00.005+08:00

wahhhhhhhhhhh!!!! when was the last time i felt genuinely happy?? it feels great mann!

ok today started off quite normal but we four neighbors took the taxi today! haha thats me alyssa burp and hendy. then normal boring day. lt5 was torture for being so hot and smelly but i honestly ketp awake for like 95% of the time! not too sure if anything went in tho. but somehow after that, the mood went ddddoooowwwnn and almost hit rock bottom (for no reason) when jeremy showed me the MICKEY MOUSE GLOVES!!! its huge! and my hands are arleady big but its like BIGGER! haha! and it has only 4 fingers! no middle finger! had a lot fun playing with it man! basketball was funny too! haha.. gosh that brought up the mood. went fer maths, then boring pw AND THEN WAHH!

i played with the swings!! ok not exactly la. its the ropes thing at the fitness place! haha! but it was so nice! like i went so high! really really happy mann!

and had a little badminton with syira! nice nice! sorry if i left u a bit like that, but u bailed out first!haha.

then went arnd jp with garrick coz got nothing to do while waiting. thanks garrick! haha. fun! bought the phone strap i wanted and walked arnd again. niceee. a lot of -_-'' moments of course plus moments when i wanna punch him, haha! didnt take pic tho but nvm! haha. then took mrt to cityhall. nice talking and catching up. cool la.

then DELTA07!!!!!!!

ok at first i was so nervous actually coz the last time was so long ago mannn... and i didnt think i miss delta so much but suddenly seeing christina, asilah and the rest made me so high and well, myself! i forgot how dramamama i can be and i was really like that thruout! wangjin almost pucked out the water she was drinking when i was so animated when trying to get a change of drink. as in i like that waddddd... haha!! then the PRADA QUEEN (aka christina) kept Dismissing me la!! haha! and she was like "excuse me, can u reheat my pizza? it has been sitting here for 45 mins!" super... i dunno wad! and Dlite was neglecting us by posting up fanficts! ive got proof! then wahh.. finally got food ENDURANCE AND DETERMINATION DELTA! ok it wasnt so loud tho. ahaha! eat eat cam whored. took so many pics! here are some.

malay regimen minus nabhah!

me, asilah, jamie!

3 on 3!

the last one was at the end when we went to esplanade rooftop. it was very quiet! not like there wasnt any "activity " tho. haha! syira suddenly sms that she's broed at home. ahahah! oh yeah! had a lot of trouble with the damn cam and flash! haha. got lots more pics tho, just haven put in my com. and yeah!!! met siti, hanis, nad and some others too! haha! main topic, ASSYaraf! hahah! really really surprising! nad was surprsied abt my hair too! and speaking of which, my hair is really becoming unruly and i cant do anything abt it! grrr

sighhh.. nice eh today! really had a lot of fun and laughters. really caught up with Garrick and Dlite! missed you, girl! like really lor! haha!

sighh.. we'll catch up again soon, k? haha!

and yeah, anyone wanna follow me go EOY Cosplaying event on the 13th Dec? ;] i wanna be yoruichi! guess i cant ehhh?

overall today has been a really TERRIFIC Monday! haha!

i shall upload more pics once i get them! ;] wahhh.. really, Endurance and Determination, Delta! that was a great time eh? glad that we still can get tgt like this! wah! really! im like tired nowww. but i just HAD to blog abt this! so happy! woohoo. and yeah, saw some guys breakdancing in just pants at the esplanade there. nice moves and abs! haha ;] ok crap, im gonna turn to be more lie garrick! haha no la.

joy is contagious mannnnnnn XDDDD

haha. this feels funny. im so overwhelmed with happiness that even when i think abt it, i dun get a single bit down. cooool! im on my wayyy! hahaha gosh im happy!

mystique-shadowcat-armycat-dramamama-rosemoon-blackcat and a lot moreeeeee

;]

2008-09-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

actually i really dont like when pple post up lyrics on their blogs coz basically i dunno the tune and that i dunno which part of the song is the important one! but yeah, just felt like doing it myself.

post promos have been rather uneventful so far and i see many pple have raised that concern very negatively in their blogs. well, i dunno why my posts have been sounding so positive and cheery, but i also wonder why others seem so bleak and sad. guess when i post, i cant help but focus on the good things that have happened. of course i get pissed at many things during that day itself and my life isnt that perfect. like that ive lost my cat, that ive lost my citadel jacket, that my sis is so arghhhh, that the HYD videos are always stuck loading halfway, that ive lost my smile, that i lost my time... ok now i dunno why im so pissed. hahahh... its better to just laugh it all. and who say its weird to laugh and cry at the same time? multi-task la! haha

ok now im freaking myself out....

haha!

anw, i hope more things happen. im getting bored of having time in my hands. coz yeah, it makes me remember bad things. which i shall not brood about!!! (thats me unsuccessfully trying to convince myself) haha.

oh yeah!!! im gonna get back at hendy for breaking all three of my swords (bamboo poles)!! its fun releasing stress with him! i wish i have my wrestle buddies back tho, rudy and shakir. but hell they wont remember me.

and yeah, to spend quality time, its never about where or how long man. haha. like u can spend quality time at the traffic light. just keep waiting for the green man, then dont walk, continue talking till it starts to blink, slowing do the handshake, attempt to cross, be stopped by one concerned friend, then continue talking! repeat procedure! hahahahaah... funny sia. i wonder how many green men we let go without crossing. haha! nice nice.

im quite excited abt tmw's DELTA REUNION! i wonder how many pple can make it. must remember to get my cam! and to clear my com of useless junk! haha!

"don't smile/laugh when u don't mean it"

sorry, i can't so that.
because i need to move on.
i need to run.
i need to fly.
i need to smile.
please.

2008-09-25T12:06:00.002+08:00

MY HEART

Disini kau dan aku
terbiasa bersama
menjalani kasih sayang
bahagia kudenganmu

pernahkah kau menguntai
hari paling indah
ku ukir nama kita berdua
disini surga kita

bila kita mencintai yg lain
mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayang ku akan hilang

if u love somebody
could we be this strong
i will fight to win
our love will conquer all

wouldn?t risk my love
even just one night
our love will stay in my heart
my heart

pernahkah kau menguntai
hari paling indah
ku ukir nama kita berdua
disini surga kita

bila kita mencintai yg lain
mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayang ku akan hilang

bila kita mencintai yg lain
mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
sayang ku akan hilang

if u love somebody
could we be this strong
i will fight to win
our love will conquer all

wouldn?t risk my love
even just one night
our love will stay in my heart
my heart

i used to sing this song to my cat... she's gonna be put to sleep tonight. good night.

2008-09-20T14:49:00.002+08:00

my finger just got a cut from my lit file! this proves that studying Can hurt you!! hahh...

but yeah, not studying lit now. gotta go thru econs again. come to think of it, there's only four papers left! econs, 2 hists and lit at the very end. all major ppffft h2s.. mon and thurs no sch. just a little bit more!

its so fun to look back on the fun times. my dad was looking at past pics of him and my mom in hawaii and our pics. he kept going "handsome right papa? handsome right?" hahah... and it gets real hilarious to see me when i was young. i was so cute!! haha... well thats wad my sis said while looking at herself, so i guess thats not too much of a narcissistic comment. hahah.

its great to find out new things too! like realise smth that happened some time ago. like it was so significant but i didnt realise it. sounds like a "too late" thing but i dunno. just feels nice. ok, not making sense right?

guess the only thing that is bringing me down (other than promos that is) is that my cat is hospitalized again. worried ehh.... it was fun trying to feed her the medicine tho. like i had to coax her by singing "my heart" to her again. oh well....

and yes, one more good thing.... MY LAPTOP IS ALIVE!!! ok, it has missing keys, its a bit slow, very little space left and its very old basically. but ITS ALIVE!!! lemme try typing with the broken keys, see if it'll make sense.

ne by ne my chess eces mve. ng twce f my exectatns. bt st t wast fr my enemys advance s essenta. nw my frends nw my fe. cacate rght. the cnseqences are great, the ga sgnfcant. sy sw steath sng. be assred, ths mta destrctn s rmsed.

woohoo! hahaha. thats cool tho! and yeah, all my files are intact and the internet works! love love love!

its feels a lot better smiling! ;]

ow... finger pain mann.

2008-09-12T21:32:00.003+08:00

hmmm. shaun read that blog post... haahaa... funny day in maths class again. was depressed at first but shaun made me laugh again! his facial expressions are always priceless! some more he was so chatty today (a change i must say) coz of the adrenaline rush. and yeah he called me an arowana. i didnt even know wad type of fish that is. but its expensive i heard! haha. lame. moron. stupid. i dun like your calculator!

anw promos are coming. and yeah.. revision gg okayy la... bleahh. it's like everyone just cant wait for promos to be over. still got things planned after promos and so many promises i gotta keep. haha

and yeah, a bit late but hmm, never knew bball can be so philosophical. like really mann. hah! thx, brey.

i love valeo, my classmates and my friends- ya'll know whyyy *raise eyebrows to those that----- hahahah! its no fill in the blanks tho.. hahahaha

every fortnight there seems to be things happening. weird.

one by one my chess pieces move. killing twice of my expectations. but still, to wait for the enemy's advance is essential. know my friends, know my foe. calculate right. consequences are great. the goal significant. sly slow stealth sing. be assured, this mutual destruction is promised.

(wadehell was that?? haha. i think lit has got into meeeee.)

my cat seems sick. ;[

being blind for a while can be fun. and dangerous. haha!

im getting very random with my posts. and now i just feel like giving a great long one like how amirah did coz there's actually alot in my mind. like im thinking of my MINDmaps now. which was basically a mind map of my thoughts. very interesting whe you map it out coz yeah. some more today lit we had this pose that kept repeating words and stuff that doesnt make sense at all to me or basically anyone but what i derived from it was that it was a series of words in a person's head while he/she was doing something. i have no idea wad. like pple dont usually think in complete sentences unless necessary. like now if i think of words i my head, it'll be in a sentence comprehensible to pple coz i'm blogging rather than just daydreaming. speaking of which i think i'll screw my gp paper 2 coz there is simply no time. my aq wll die. like seriously. actually tis paragraph wasnt so big or too random. but i sometimes wish i can write like this forever. just writing my thoughts down so that it'll go on and on. i think i think too much. too much on stupid stuff la. ok STOP!

and stareeeeeeee.... (lame to the maxx)

hahah

im getting crazy alr la haa... somebody stop me! haha

more than you think. more than you think. if you realised.

;]

2008-08-23T19:11:00.002+08:00

mann.. didnt go sch today.. tmw will a whole way 8 hrs man.. haha. parents out of singapore de.. no diff kinda, coz i always not home wad.. haha.

lotsa things have been happening and it kinda distracts me. as in not just tHat but yeah. dunno why but ive been rather distracted these few days. like last two weeks i was wayyy more focused and productive. candle burning out alr? damn. must relight it! yeah hidayah, where's that fire? didnt you say that fire is me? ok why am i refering to myself in such a way?hahahhh...

and yeah, another thing to slap myself for- for forgetting to smile everyday, no matter what.

and yeah, for being distracted.

and yeah, ok i forgot for wad.

oh yeah, for screwing up my 60%

and of course, to wake myself up!

smile ;]

2008-08-21T13:07:00.003+08:00

at home now... stomachache got kinda worst just now in the morn. ended up sleeping it off again. haha

feels kinda good to be home tho.. like i hardly ever spend time at home these few weeks. good thing i'm able to spend time at home then, coz my parents are gg indon fer 4 days starting this sat yea.. haha, shlod have seen my mom's surprise when she saw me and my two younger sisters come home at the same timeon tues. or was it mon? ok none of us know what day is what any more coz well, spend too much time in sch. hahahhh.. but hell yea, its fer the promos so we just gotta go thru this..

somebody gotta slap my face fer not knowing my class blog. its a bit the.. erm.. gay tho.. haha! and the council blog.. a bit dead but i love the skin! hahaha

gosh, another reason fer someone to slap my face. that is, fer not realising wad great classmates i have. like fatin was so nice to me when i was sick la! on tues i was having stomachaches AGAIN (grr) so was sleeping it off at the sickbay. she came in alomst every break and got me milo! so nice cannn.. haha.. love love. and yeah, shaun is weird but somebody has got to remind me to sit beside him during maths man.. coz in his own way, he's damn funny! as in he keeps going "moron, retard, stupid" and all that to me just coz i cannot do a maths problem or i forget to bring my specs. guess how much fun i had calling him that back when he couldnt do a qn! haha! shaun- you want to die young??
me- you think i wont fight back meh?
shaun- dont try me.
me- fight ah!

well, in the end we didnt fight. but i had a good laugh looking at his expressions! and his jokes are always so unexpected! its like this idiot is like trying to make me feel better about my marks. ok the funny thing is not the joke la.. ok the joke is funny. but he told it in such a "stoned" way and all! haha. econs ytd was funny too

me- eh how to do ah? wad she talking abt?
shaun- *explains*
me- oooh!
shaun- moron.
me- thanks.
shaun- welcome.

haha!! funny really. but after that he was really annoyed at me coz i forgot my specs AGAIN. shesh! and yea, he said smth abt being blind and wadehell so yeah, i just moved to the front table. ppffft!

sighh... wonder wads wrong with my body. bleahh.. study study dayahhh

ok.. gtg.. before my mom slaps me, i better do the laundryyy....

2008-08-13T21:26:00.002+08:00

some times i wish i was a cat.
a cat can wander off alone.
a cat can have companions.
a cat can sleep for many many hours!
a cat can fight.

but i love being myself
dayahh got to know a lot of pple
dayahh treasures these pple
dayahh has a lot of good memories
dayahh has many bad memories
dayahh can fight

i never regret doing anything. at least for most of the time la. then again, i'm not saying my decisions are always right. nor am i living life to the fullest yet. haha. but even if i have a chance to change or turn back time, i won't change a thing.

and yes, amirah, please remember that slap each time you think badly of yourself. and remember! don't regret! even if it doesnt turn out well, it is still better than it is now! stooopid woman!

at least i managed to rest for a while after Os. now its fucking promos.

dayahh will fight.
dayahh is fighting.
dayahh won't let go of Valeo.

stay strong~

2008-08-10T22:16:00.002+08:00

finally!!! the internet works! haha!

anyway sunday now. the week passed passed damn fast. leaders thing also. my investiture walk in wasnt used.good thing tho, i thot that was best. haha! anyway banni won the cheerleading thing! i think we won only coz well.. we cheerlead lor? heheeee.. great job hanisah, si ian (even tho u in the end sprain your ankle! sighhhhh haha!) and everyonee! we got 10 bux voucher each! but must buy all 10 bux at one shot! HOW? like sizzling ice haha... gorge on ice cream! haha!

wahh.. studying now.. ok as in not now, but like study period now.. not super stressed. feels like os. but it sucks, the possibility of retaining is like looming. sucksss... but cool la.. as in i'm seriously studying now. sadly, i'm doing wad i did before Os, study maths only. haha! like i rmbr, 2 weeks or wad before the start of the Os, i was still doing maths only. coz maths first paper. haha! just now did hist. hard siaaaa... 2 hrs to do one country, burma i think. notes all la.. then spent the next 3 hrs reading the other notes. at the end i accidently slept. hahah! but like the movie i watched fer hist "charlie willie-smth" reminded me why i loved hist. haha!

come on hidayahhh! let's go!

wadehell..

Lunar Eclipse

Darkness in the Light.
Such mystery in clarity.
In a perfect sight,
the Moon's acme of beauty.

2008-08-03T22:02:00.003+08:00

hahahhh.. gdness! how long as it been sia! havent even talked about my bdae and it's alr 3rd august. coolio!

anyway ok mel, my bdae was great! i dun usually have bdaes or wadeva planned out, this yr also never la. but i got great prezzies! mel, i love your gifts! your letter/card more. like i just love letters la. haha! the earrings aiyo.. how to wear! cannot in sch one! haha.. then anyway i got cake! damn nice can! hahaah. then burp gave me and jan a panda! nice nice. but the best was the shocking one! haha.. i've been opening my cupboard the whole day and there was nothing inside la. nothing there. so guess how surprised i was when gad was opening our cupboard to get somth and said "hidayah! there's smth here for you! and it's annoying me!" coz it was a yellow bag hung on my cupboard! inside there was a letter and a cat pencil case! nice nice! haha! and the funny thing is, there were exactly 24 cats on it! everyone in valeo except me! haha ;]]

nice nice.. so anyway much have happened. i forgot wad happened la basically. haha! but yeah, star camp... erm... learnt a lot... it was a failure la ha? i suck. thats why i'm gonna keep movin and do better! i wont let mr tan down any more! and yeah... many things have changed. mr leow is taking over us. sighh. let's see how it goes.

and yeah! i like netball! had netball inter hse competition on fri. we kena owned like nobody's business la! haha.. but it was great fun sia! that plus cheerleading on sat well, my whole body is aching now. after that, ytd, we had a little gathering for mr t tan. fun man! played volleyball for a bit with the rest and mr tan kg! haha.. his throws are always unexpected! ahha. it wasnt too sad. i was afraid and yeah, sad, but not to the point of crying fer me. funny thing happened tho. my legs were super unmovable for a while. weird type of cramp. and one thing! i almost fainted! like woo! finally! never fainted before one eh! but never faint la... just almost haha. tee kai was being very nice, thanks yo!

did you notice?
That Eclipse.

2008-07-05T10:56:00.002+08:00

in council room now. waiting fer excel fest. kinda scared actualy.first time nehh.. but ... CAN AHHH! haha.

anyway lotsa things have been happening. like Chris quit. Shopping with family!;] Zhe jiang pple left. chinese chess with jj, that i won! ;] sending janice to clinic, which was very interesting. ;] and yea, i lost my earpiece. which truely sucks man.haha.

actually ive no mood to blog. like a lot of things always happen everyday. which is great really! coz everyday is a new day. i always end my day with a smile. even if i get sad, stressed or confused, i love it ;] it gets harder to love, but i can help but to do so. haha.. makes sense?

ok, no mood already. my throa a bit sore because of all he rootbeer haha.. and yes, of course. i love you teekai! thanks for the drink! ;]

how apt the song is.. for you. wine red.

2008-06-21T22:51:00.004+08:00

YTD WAS FUN!

coz i met Mira! haha.. well, in the morn, there was games trial and sss trial.. which was fun actually! coz we were mildly retarded.. haha.. mostly coz there was THE COMBO there.. Syira and Tee Kai la... and my gdness! Huai Ching finally came! haha.. so in a way, we had ful strength today! nice.. whenever AS say Full strength, i always get reminded of ....

"Gd morning Staff, Full Strength 25, Present strength 18, One holding post as IC waiting for fruther instructions, Staff!"

or smth like that! haha.. but yeah! im gonna miss slackin a bit.. but im pretty geared up le.. haha.. but anywayyyy

then after that got a lot of meetings.. fine.. only two la.. but the games and sss Action Review was a bit long la ha.. actually ok la.. nvm nvm.. but during the other meetings.. wah.. i was hungry mann! i bet i looked pissed or smth haha..

then i met mira! haha.. fun fun...

funny la.. we spent some time talking first.. like our phones, we kept pressing the snooze button! like we were supposed to start studying at 4, then became 415 then 445! wahh.. but yeah, we studied la.. functions, log and graphing techniques! ok, not like we studied everything there but yeah.. a bit a bit.. haha... then she belanja me prata! oh yeah! there was this baby ah, keep looking at me dammit! so annoying! as in freak la! see see!

hahah.. was nice talking to mira.. and nice talking to somebody on the phone too! hahahah..

met nablah after that.. cool man.. dentist woo..

then today was funny too.. accompanied my grandma to a wedding.. funny.. coz she made me wear a gold bracelet and a gold ring... totally clash with my baju kurung.. and like mann i felt awkward... haha

just a day before school...

she's a shooting star... good night.. good night..

she's a shooting star... goodbye...

2008-06-18T22:00:00.002+08:00

haha.. my mom is damn lame.. i didnt want to go for the lit retreat, la but dammit la.. haha.. like once she heard the word "stayover" hahh... she was like "wad retreat retreat? no no. enough already. wads with ur sch. i treat them then you know. wad u want me to speak to ur principal abt this ah?" which is ironical really coz she didnt want to talk to mr wangyal when he was on the phone.. lameshit.. i mean lameAwesome..as in dammit, i didnt even go fer Council retreat, i didnt go fer OG bbq, didnt go fer snr wenting's pop frm ocs, i didnt even send chris off... gdness, wad Have i gone for?? well, im glad i sepnt my june hols in sch then! wasnt stupid enough to stay at home coz if i didnt go sch, i wldnt have gone fer anything at all this june! hahah.. but anyway mr wangyal was really nice abt it.. felt kinda guilty fer his trouble.. and funny la! when i called him, first thing he said was "hey hidayah, u have a long life! i was just abt to call you! not a second ago! i was pressing ur number when u called! haha.. " i was like.."??... thats cool.... haha" funnaye...

great ex is boring.. id rather do maths.. well, id rather do maths than any of my subjects anyway..

laughing is gd for ur health. ;]

hols gonna be over.. and to think i wanted to go fer a run every other day.. hahahahahha now thats a joke! wah bubbletea is the main reason for my weight gain hahahh...

anyway yeah.. thats all i wanted to say! haharr.. ;]

2008-06-17T21:52:00.002+08:00

mann.. this is funnnaye.. ok maybe not really.. but mann.. i just realised recently how angsty or depressing (as syira says) my posts have been.. really it's only because i post whenever i really feel very angry or pissed.. but im actually feeling jolly good! hahahh..

ive been so preoccupied with lame emotions that i forgot to talk abt anythnig else! like the lunch with Christina, Welfare and stuff... like i cant really rmbr now even.. shucks...(oh yeah! my snr PJ was frm crescent! and she was the batch that kick CBL to DnT! and Howsun made a wrong choice of wearing purple mann.. hahahhhh)

but anywayyyy.. today was such a retarded day! as in i dunno why i was so hgih and lame-ass.. like after my maths, i followed syira cut hair... i think it was during kfc that i started being retarded.. haha.. must've been the oreo crush too! haha.. but man was i having fun just laughing laughing! "wanna go yunnan?? we got catered bus frm jj to there!" haha.. meeting up with shakina was great too!.. gosh.. nice nice.. then meeting OOPS.. i meant WST (welfare social talk) nice nice.. then went home with burp.. i owe her a lot of money mann.. waffles and talking was fun.. can you believe her?? ok this is wad happened..

Burp: (in super seriousness) Hey, i'm worried eh....
Me: (expecting the worst) About?...
Burp: (without a change in tone of seriousness) The oil prices are gg up.. food prices are gg up.. us currency is weakening...
Me: Yeah, all prices will go up la...
Burp: (still sounding serious) but really eh.. later food prices go up.. then price of chocolate will go up also....

My Goodness! hahahahah... of course this is the "abridged" version of wad we said.. but wadehell??? hahah...nice nice

and btw i realised chengyi talks A LOT in his blog! relative to what he usually does la.. haha.. and hell i was shocked that he linked me.. haha.. and yeah.. im very lazy to link pple... maybe ishdlnt link at all haha....

and mann... singapore is so tiny that we are all CONNECTED! no need nokia le... or was it starhub? deosnt matter!

i am so not looking forward to the lit retreat nor am i of school! june hols has been such a great time.. sighh..gd things have to end huh?

and come to think of it, i miss Christian.. gosh.. long time siaz.. and ure sick la! dont go fer lit! stupid ! take care of ur health mann.. sheshh... really, take care...

and this is to my friends out there...
damn.. i miss u guys.. long long talks with bball.. talking while attempting to suntan...or just singing at the fitness area.. or long calls that end late at night.. u guys are almost too far away alr.. gg abt ure own lifes.. dang...

and to Aubrey
firstly, happy bdae.. and dammit.. i want to say a lot to you but man.. really... ur smses always touch me.. from the time u sms me that day, before Revelation, to during my elections when i was so indecisive and scared, and even now you're looking out for me.. damn.. i keep trying to understand what u are gg thru there but i cant.. but u always give me that warmth.. shucks.. girl, you really surprised me there with your sms nya... miracles..thank you... hope to see you soon.. love ya babe.. ;]

2008-06-11T21:50:00.005+08:00

ytd.. i was damn pissed.. if i explain why i would most probably never end.. LIKE ARGHHHH DAMMITT!!! LIKE WADEHELL??!!! ASSSHOLE LA!!! AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN DAMMIT! @$@#%$$#%$#%ytr&%&

yeah... syira totally realised it when i walked pass the LN.. gave me a hug.. sorry junjie haha.. dammit la.. blazer pple another pissing off thing la (i still love doing it tho)... wah really.. but

mann... i love going to school.. why?.. i come inside and after some time, i hear Chengyi with his lame ass jokes.. Green? LP? wadehell... GAd very hardworking.. why? she leave out all the Rest... funny sia... highlight must have been this part tho.... when three of our unfortunate councillors had this mental illness where they mixed up their genders! haha..see for yourself! haha

thats gadis giving "tutorial" to CY!

so cute right? their facial expressions really distract

our vision from the.. EEK! legs.. haha

this was my fav!

and who's this girl? oh! its howsun!

and ice cream totally got rid of that sucky feeling..

sadly, i only got two scoops haha... but had one huge one (a little brainfreeze there) when i was trying to imitate hendy.. his mouth damn big la! nice nice..

mann.. there's only a few days to school.. sighh..

and yeah

Bye christina! have a safe flight! sry i cldnt be there!.. ;]

2008-06-08T00:29:00.002+08:00

bought a new phone! same as Mira, just diff colour.. haha..

its so funny how a song can totally kill my happiness..

wads the use huh?

2008-06-06T00:22:00.002+08:00

honestly, i'm very ashamed of myself.. being so unproductive even after being given this time and chance.. why did i waste my two weeks? ok its not that i didnt do ANYTHING at all but.. its too little.. and i STILL procrastinate the simplest things.. maybe i really shldnt study in sch..there are too much distractions that tempt me all the time.. come to think of it.. my main reason fer comin to school is to wait for the people to retrun the blazers and wait fer their fine.. crap.. they made me wait and wait.. well, at home, my main distraction is not the internet, the tv, nor my own procrastination... it's really sleep..

funny really.. sleeping is really like dying right? what is it that really draws me to this great thing-sleep? for a long time, i've thought of this.. and its really because of dreams.. i find every dream to be such an exeprience.. i shld count myself lucky.. coz others usually get nightmares..but yeah.. i shld get up and do smth man!.. its all a matter of starting and then it will continue..

such contradiction... well.. just as honestly, i really feel at peace.. i love going to the council room early (or not!hehe) in the morn.. i just feel happy.. whenever i get home, my mood changes because of the people arnd me.. but yeah.. i shld be more productive.. afterall, there's only 16 days left to the start of school! hahahhhhh

have i made up my mind?.. not yet.. then again then again.. maybe never..

2008-05-25T19:40:00.002+08:00

back home finally..

17hrs of sleep mann.. haha.. ok let see.. frm 130am to 6pm.. yup.. arnd there!. haha

anyway yeah.. wzlc.. was i think... quite a flop on my part.. coz i cant plan fer deco and i cant execute deco-ing.. but nvm.. imma go think of deco startin now i tell you!! haha.,..

anyway i like the fun parts abt the camp... sss la! well, prep wasnt great.. wish i cld do more proper deco.. but DURing the thing itself was great! haha.. i was beside mr hendri.. even more fun! he was really amused and was saying things like "mat tak menjadi!" "kena sawan"haha..

then in the morn helping Junjie with the food was fun sia! burp la! "gimme gimme FOOD!gimme FOOD FOOD!" haha..

then at night wah.. me,jiacheng and dom stayed up fer some time just talking abt bleach.. haha.. but not so long la.. jiacheng and dom slept first while i played with his psp fer a while.. haha

got nothing much to say abt the camp anyways.. just that i wish we all had time fer each other more..

-//-

in sch now.. really mann.. my mom jsut told me to sleep in sch.. haha.. i dont mind! haha..no la.. ok la.. now im waiting fer 1130... blazer again.. anyway yeah.. was thinking of how pathetic i was during camp.. and great... how pathetic i did fer my studies.. usscab.. i shld spend my time more wisely.. so i shall...

~*~

somebody tell me to not shake.. speed.. why am i losing my strengths and getting consumed.. done

2008-05-19T01:56:00.002+08:00

sunday today and i cant tell u how glad i am that tmw is a free day.. well not really, but still.. .. woke up at 4 today.. PM.. haha.. best.. well thats prolly the reason why im still wide awake at 2 am.. haha..

anyway yea.. busy hell... everyday got meeting.. investiture's finally over, but hell that was the beginning... was busy even before that, so invest wasnt such a big thing fer me.. prep took some time tho.. walk-in, walk up was pretty stressful coz other than that i had to settle a bit abt the cards and the next best thing - blazerrrrrrrrr... haha.. i dunno la.. its tiring admin work liddat, stressful accounting, time consuming.. but i had fun! staying up late just to account fer every blazer, to find out the dfif sizes, ironing some a bit, pasting names.. but i get to happy! especially when i finally manage to find a blazer frm a snr and when i can confidently pass the list of names and sizes to ms lim.. was so happy la! was really happy when i got a satisfied customer too! haha.. hendy la!.. he long time ago said he had his perfect blazer and it had a white spot above the pocket.. so unliek among tohers that have worn blazers, he can remember his.. really lor, fi everyone can rmbr their blazer no., it'll be so great fer me!.. yeah, then when we found it we were so happy! haha... jsut cant ferget that la.. haha! and stop "honouring" me by putting ur blazer on me u idiot! haha..

funnn.. another nice part was the snrs.. a snr kept calling me blazer girl, and she apologised to me.. fer wad?.. she thot she gave me trouble when fitting .. coz we had to find a gd fitting ma.. but nvm wad... as in, that was no trouble at all... trouble comes only when they have sudden changes and im not in the know or that we cannot confrim where their blazers are..and seriously, pentiong and cherie has been helping me alot! thx mann! and thx to jeremy fer helping me that ntie too! totally fergot what exactly i was supposed to do tho.. haha.. junhao was nice too! sis saw that my face a bit stress then said "hidayah, why ur face so stone?",.. "blazers still not settled"... i was a lill stress coz i thot blazers were ok alr but things happened.. then sis sdudenly came up and put a hand on my head and said "blazers always like that'.... smth liddat, cant rmbr.. or maybe it was blazers always not settled.. well, it did sound comforting.. and anw after that i really ddint allow myself to get stress... haha...

so now.. im still Blazinnnnn haha.. pre u sem, smun, sage, yoga need blazers.. very gd ah.. so many blazers some more.. haha... will be busaaayye....

and wzlc.. best.... haha..... planning plannin planning..a real challenge fer me, a person who hardly ever plans.. haha..but im still okayy.. just need to be faster... much faster, hidayahh

anyway, to the friends that have been supportng me, thank you so much... i may not seem like it, but i really need you.. sry if ive been too busy fer u guys..

and yeah.. haha.. rgiht after chengdu ive been screwng up fer my test.. haha... hmk due.. haha..bestt... but hell i love my teachers, theyr'e so understanding! and yeah.. my ecnos test, i nvr stduy and still got better than some! btu still fail la.. haha.. braggart! nah.. jsut a lill happy.. ;]

anyway gdnite folks..
fer those who have time to sleep, do catch ur sleep.. ;]

valeo...
go!go!powerrangers!
youcanthurtmewiththethingsthatyoudo,illpickupdandelionsandillgivethemtoyou!
valeo

2008-05-03T20:44:00.002+08:00

wahh.. tired... and angry.. so angry that i cant even feel the anger.. funny.. i cant even rmbr wad happened in chengdu now la.. coz of my idiotic sister.. she deleted ALL my pics and videos.. ALL eh.. sucks big time.. why? coz the memory card reader wasnt with me.. fuck her man.. as in im really damn pissed off at her la.. lemme tell you

in the morn she asked me fer it.. i said with gad.. she asked fer the usb cable.. my eldest sis lost it. my fault? no. then she threatened me.. told me to go get it in the morn or else she'll delete all the pics.. i said "you dare delete them?" and she used that against me later.. then i went out of my house and hr early, called gad, burp they all..almost went straight to gad's hse.. then finally gad got it.. and i had it with me.. my sis nvr call me or anything.. then my mom say she'll go get it + the shoes i was wearing.. please la.. my other pair i use fer how many days? 8 days you know! duhh i needed that purple sneakers to go sch.. wad? she no other shoe mehh? plz la..then she also angry coz i use her bag.. fuck la.. you no other bag mehh? so i just stayed in sch.. my mom was angry too.. then she say that I DARED my sis to delete the photos.. then my mom came over in the car and i dumped everything to my sis.. made me apologised.. i didnt apologised. just said sorry.. and my mom went "is this wad you learnt in sch?" i Knew hat was coming mann.. but heck, im NOT at fault... inm the end because i wasnt REMORSEFUL, she still deleted them.. then she sms me like as tho it was MY fault that SHE deleted those pics..

"dayah you really blew it. if you had been the least remorseful, i'd have spared your pictures"

me: "i wasnt and still am not at all"

"wads wrong with you? It wldnt even have to happen. i only told you to return the card. why did you have to take the bag and shoes and still feel just?"

after that wahhh.. damn shit i go and really say a lot of stuff.. in the end part i say "good luck with taking pics... :) "

hahahahahaha... really mann.. all my pics and videos gone.. and my fav pics were the pics my and gad took with the shades.. with that bungirl! teachers! damnnn...damn nice la.. damnshit la..

~*~

ok done.. wah.. i no mood to talk abt chengdu dammit.. but i tell you.. it was my best days mann.. as in.. we were focused on the things we needed to do there.. bond, learn how to work tgt, blah blah.. there wasnt any distractions like friends, hmk and time management.. wahh... then .. oh yeah.. was oic fer two days.. and i was so damn noob.. nvm.. shall do better next time.. anyway it was cold plus hot.. haha.. and i love the mealtimes.. coz me hendri is SO funny! ahaha..

"man.. kosong satu, telor satu! bandung tiga! eh.. kiter ni kuda ke? wahh.. jauh jauh makan telur tomato, mak aku pun boleh buat!"

like mann.. i really got no mood.. damn i wish i got pics.. oh yeah.. i splurged for myself.. haha.. actl i only bought three things fer myself.. but two out of the three we the most ex ones la.. haha.. i bought fer myself a black rose (fake duhh) at 13rmb, necklace that i LOVE at--- and a original mickey mouse wallet for---... but i really love them all la! heheehehehe

anyway yeahh.. shall talk more when i get pics fm other pple.. asshole sister..

bye!

over and out! (i love using walkies!shall talk more abt it laterrr)

2008-04-18T04:25:00.002+08:00

wow.. how many lightyears ago did i blog? two weeks? retarded.. i apologise to my friends who have reminded me of the thick layer of dust i have here.. sighh.. life's been busy and im really afraid to blog or ill just not get to spend time on my hmks and such... well, its 425 am now and im doing my lit term assignment.. not really doing it la.. its not very.. well, easily understandable.. hahah..

anyway, for everybody that has come up to me and told me "i voted for you!", i really thank ya'll... i may look as tho it doesnt matter.. like i just thank yall then smile.. but really, i truely appreciate it.. esp for those that i don't even know you and you can just come up to me and say it.. as in, i dunno la.. it just gives me the push that i need to continue.. to continue to strive and not give up... for those that have been encouraging me too.. aubrey, mel, mira, soleha, fatin, sharon, sherwin.. many others.... yall are my strengths.. christian, i know you dunno my blog.. but you too have been my source of strength.. dont stress ah.. coz i get stress.. coz each time i see you, ill lose any stress then you stress then come back.. ok weird haha...

anyway, malay dance performance was.... ermmm.. haha...ok bad things happened la.. and the bad things happened DURING the dance.. haha.. as in.. not funny la.. i was pretty pissed then.. but its still funny la.. ok so we went to the Kolam Ayer CC.. timings fer the opening was pretty screwed but it turned out okayy after that.. then we got ready in our costumes.. a bit the panicky tho it was still okayy timing.. i was the blusher! as in i put on pple blush.. and eyeliner.. and lipstick.. haha..then wahh.. we were all so PINK! HOT PINK EH! my lipstick was also hot pink la.. but i thot it was nice.. haha.. oh yeahh.. this quote "my s (corset size) is universal. everyone loves my s" haha.. shakina said one.. haha.. well, my corset was perfect actl..but then the zipped opened a bit and Siti (og8!) help me zip.. she zip so hard that it broke! haha.. put on safety pins and hell, it held out for a LONG time.. but thennnnnn.. i tell later..

the nasi lemak was damn hot la! had a good time laughing at each other abt it.. and i overestimated myself.. i already cannot tahan that spicy but still soldiered on! ended up panting and all.. hahaha... wahh. that day i eat a lot one eh.. but still felt that i can eat more! then we went there.. the stage was DAMN small plz! almost as small as the room in the CC.. which is DAMN small.. it cldnt accomodate 22 (i think) of us well at all.. then.. well.. dance time.. before that was like woohoo.. so excited.. then you know wad happened??? STUPID AVAC! play the song two beats into the song.. so we were stuck there..then we cldnt do the first part of the dance properly that we LOVE! stupid la.. avac made many mistakes after that too.. then after that.. haha.. the first part of the song and my corset burst! cld be coz i eat too much but like wadehell right??? then made some mistakes at the starting part.. but kept my smile (must smile with teeth one.. im trained for this since pri sch! haha) and dance as much as i can.. it didnt fall down or anything la.. but i cld feel it get loose ehh... but the the "ha! ha!ha!haaaa.." part ah.. esp the secon time we did that, i did it the best as i can.. haha.. as in i also shout.. must buat bising maa.. hhaahaha..

then after the dacnce we did a smaaaalll yippaanderneh! haha.. cool la.. met riyandi! haha he got fatter... then me and marliana rushed to the toilet to pin up my corset.. then we were like hurrying la.. coz i was in the opening dance! which is not exactly opening.. its opening coz it welcomes the mp.. who came only at 9? yeahh... anywya the atrika dance company dance was nice mann.. the dance moves not copyrighted right? coz i wanna use! haaha..

gg home with soleha was nice too.. talked talk talk.. haha..

eh best ahh.. my sat gone right? i got home at 1215 am.. haha best.. then right, the next day i woke up at 10am.. tried doing some econs project.. ended up just talking to christian on the phone.. he was at the market la the idiot.. cant rmbr wad the impt thing we were taking abt.. ohhh.. its only the small part.. yeahh.. then i had to clean the red onions..peel the skin wadeva... good thing never tear.. bleahh.. hhaah.. the 230 left for west coast macs (which i initally thot was east coast and thats why i got pissed) got there so late.. haha.. thanks mel, haha..fun talking to you! haha.. then did some econs.. sorry.. coz i wasnt very helpful.. then christian came and we did our cards... he look like apek! the we went home.. nice of his dad to send me home.. haha..

then wahh.. next few days were tiring.. i cant rmbr wad has been happening these few days.. oh yeah.. banni stuff aso got now.. in charge of 400m and 4x400m.. haha.. anyway wednesday was funny.. we were timing the pple all that.. then wah.. damn hot that day.. oh yeah.. then we were at the pe porch trying to figure out who to put in wad.. the jannah was like "hidayah.. can la.. we just put your name.. anyway 1.5 is on monday then u can just get it over and done with! i need to put pple la.." then i was.. "i not runner you noe!.. i short d only!" then aftermuch persuasion "fine la.. but not confirmed" then wahhhh taht retard put my name in 1500m, 3000m and 800m.. crazy la! ahaha.. i almost never go fer the TA coz i thot i shld be at the pe porch.. grabbed a few minutes and it was over... can ahh.. hhhahaa...

oh yes and ytd!!!! as in thursday la... i played basketball!! after wad.. two months? hhaha.. ok maybe not that long... but cld be that long ehh.. air ball! hahah.. but got it back after some time.. sprained a finger on my left hand.. but its worth it! the 25 minutes spent with aubrey, adeline, sally, paperheart and their friend whose name eludes me was well worth it! hhaha... i shld play bball more often..

anyway i made a few cheers! as in edited the yippa andeneh to a malay one! it was abt food ah.. coz that day in malay class i was so damn hungry it just came.. and i most probably irritated adeline so much.. that seh ended up belanja-ing me kfc! ill pay you back! er.. next week! hha...and yeah,.. girl, happy birthday ;]

and guess who i met on the way home ytd? Rashid! was really pleased to meet him coz we talked a lot la.. sorry soleha fer pangseh-ing you like that.. heheeee.. then talk talk talk.. wahh.. nice mann.. i thot he wld be the type that will talk a lot one ehh.. ahhah... Y-Men must meet up! haha

mann.. i was really envious of my sis..she has the time to play with my cat.. sighh

okla.. ive talked a lot.. ill try to blog more often.. two weeks is very long huh? haha.. anyway now 513am already.. almost 45 minutes of my life gone.. but not wasted! haha..45 minutes shld be used to make one lit paper rite? haha.. irony of it all.. okla... i better do my lit.. oh mann.. got blackout.. damn..back..shesh.. good thing no meeting this morn.. means i can have more time to do this.. and finally, after two weeks, go out of my hse at 7 instead of 615! yeah! yeah! yeah! yeah! hahahaha.. ;]

2008-04-06T06:31:00.005+08:00

wow.. i cant believe i totally wasted my sat.. like i expected myself to wake up late at nite but woahh.. frm 645pm to 645am the next dae sia... well, lets take it as me catching up on my sleep.. really havent been sleeping much lei.. but damn i feel bad..

anyway ytd dance was truely dissapponting.. i shld have gone fer the yog thing at vjc and gone there.. ill still be on time i tell u! coz they reached sch back at 12pm and we started the briefing onli at 1330.. damn stupid coz we were there by 1030.. the dance that started was also onli fer the opening and starting dancers, which luckily i got in or i wld have to wait and rot till 3pm.. opening dance damn easy also haha.. then cikgu's husband sent me, nadiah and sheeka home first, coz we asked to go off early and got kitkat! was so hungry that i just ate it there and then. nadiah also caved in and ate too! oh yeah! before the waiting waiting crap, there were some nice stuff that happened! hahaa.. azureen and me la! haha.. shld see the video clip fer the sng Apologize that we made.. Azureen damn violent la! then we all took pics where we blend in the backgrnd coz it was a blue shutter that was the same blue as our banni shirt! and we looked like dikir darat eh!! haha...

twitzzz!

emo la gitu..(lapar punyer pasal kot..)

Tarian-ers! hahah

sighh.. im lovin life now.. of course there are some downs.. but the support im receiving frm my frens is more than enough to make up fer it.. so im overall happy! and yeah! ive been pretty lucky this week! mon- go kfc in the afternoon then when i was abt to run back to sch, Adeline called and said cikgu not in! haha.. then wed- i havent done my pw, econs and malay hmk and they were like frm 9 to 1pm side by side..then i was sick so i slept at the sickbay, seriously expected to wake up in an hr but wahhh.. sherwin woke me up onli at one! hahaa then thurs- i honestly fergot my content notes and was gg arnd before 8 lookng fer smbody who cld help mee but cldnt.. in the end, after MUCH worry, mr lim didnt come fer class.. lucky!

but sherwin not so lucky.. thurs and fri she got cat shit on her shoe!! haha.. but had fun cleaning it! we forgot the basic thing! USE SOAP LA! hahahaah.. thankyou Thaddeus fer ur deo, we used quite a lot of it! hhah.. and thanks HL fer ur perfume too! hahah.. oh yeah.. i think my class a bit retarded eh.. so many brought stickers! ive got four on the back of my phone now! haha..

actl i still have a lot of stuff to say coz i dun get to post very often.. busy ah.. and if i start blogging ill waste the rest of my time surfing the net rather than doing my work.. but its ok.. its alr quite big a post! but shall end it off with two things

one:
VOTE FOR ME AND CHRISTIAN! THATS 3 AND 16! ;]

two:
im stuck with this song..i think its freaky plus nice, the words very lit liddat..
WINE RED

who shot that arrow in ur throat?
who missed the crimson apple?
it hung heavy on the tree above ur head
this chaos this calamity
this garden once was perfect,
give ur immortality to me
ill set u up against the stars

Gloria,
We lied, we can't go on
This is the time and this is the place to be alive

Who shot that arrow in your throat?
Who missed the crimson apple?
And there is discord in the garden tonight

The sea is wine red
This is the death of beauty
The doves have died
The lovers have lied

I cut the arrow from your neck
Stretched you beneath the tree
Among the roots and baby's breath
I covered us with silver leaves

Gloria,
We lied, we can't go on
This is the time and this is the place to be alive

repeates chorus..

who's gloria?

2008-03-31T20:08:00.003+08:00

i really dont like bitching abt other people... as in some times u just NEED to tell others of the injustice that had befallen u or the bad characteristics of that single person that just irks u... i guess i am a little scared that while I bitch abt pple, there will be others bitching abt me.. then again, without me bitching abt others, there may already be pple doing so of me.. but it hurts to know that there are pple who hates u and are spreading the word of hate to others..

the thing is that, pple can be MANIPULATED to hate/love others. (anticlimax yeah but i just found another person's blog that has the exact template as mine! hahah..) like last time, there was this girl in my class that i thot was very nice. she was la. but then, another friend of mine kept insisting that she is extremely annoying (voice, hair etc like wadehell rite? damn bitchy sia this girl..) and long story cut short, i believed it and began to see onli the bad side of her.. when i finally sat down thot of it, i realised that the second friend of mine is the one that deserves to be bitched abt. she openly talked badly abt her la. right in front of her! and most, if not all, of her reasons were baseless and ridiculous! but then again she is actually a good person. she has some characteristics that irks others(including me) too but deosnt everybody? arent we all humans?

its okay to point out mistakes and at some times, bitch abt him/her. but i find it rather cruel to ostracize(sp?) without giving them sufficient chances. mock me for being a "cordelia", but i really have this believe that there is some good in people which we must be patient enough to find. forgive, tho maybe not forget, as everyone makes mistakes.

i hope that if i have a bad trait that need to be changed because it really affects anyone or if the things that i do in some way or another have hurt someone, somebody wld tell me. i apologize first. i hate being talked badly of behind my back. not again please...

smile, everyone..
no matter how painful it is..
;]

2008-03-27T18:01:00.002+08:00

wah.. it has been quite some time eh? ever since my bleahh mersing trip rite?..

so anyways life's been great! ok lets see

mon: im still a little ache-y because of pc.. hist was such a drag mann.. but yeah! mira came over! not with good news tho.. handphone stolen.. like WADEHELL rite??? some more the phone damn new la.. so sad fer her, worried too.. who wldnt be? in the middle of hist class she gave me miss calls and was at the verge of crying when i actl cld pick up.. bleahh.. but really.. i missed her and yeahh.....

tues: icebreakers didnt work out at all.. crap.. but i still love 08A03! coolio! haha.. ended sch pretty early but stayed back to watch the match after accompanying sherwin with sharon.. they damn annoying la! made me hooked up with that CDAYL thingy la please! but must have the TUNE haha.. funny la the match.. ok im never a fan of soccer but i was cheering a lot for JJ! it was funny coz i was like "GO JJ!" while Kannan was like "go ac..." hilarious mann! haha.. sad that there wasnt really a cheeroff but yeahh.. jj lost 1 nil tho.. but ITS OKAYY!! haha

wed: had malay dance! well, ended sch damn early so i went home, ate, slept, woke up, brush teeth, got back to sch... coolio! i was stupid to have forgotten my towel and water bottle.. like the dance was pretty hiphop so i cld catch them pretty quickly.. screwed up when i had to show them the dance tho.. then homeee

thurs: i know its no excuse but yeah.. i cld wake up at three as planned so i cldnt do my work.. freak la... chairperson so irresponsible... bleahh.. then forgot to meet mr lim at 1330.. met him onl iafter malay coz i REALLY forgot.. wahh..

so anyway, bleahh.. being chair not that easy siaz.. and yeah.. i get to see my frens a but whenever i can talk to them i must keep a lookout fer anything like teachers, campers or wadeva.. i miss gad, howsun and aubrey siazzz.. but then in sch also diff timings.. bleahh.. have been saying a lot of "jiayou"-s tho! haha... oh yeah.. wanted to crash kw just now but decided against it coz .. hmm.. i dunno la.. want to be there but have a feeling that i shldnt... but anyway i really like my frens now.. hahah! ;] and i know i dont regret not gg fer slo wadeva (ok got regret a bit la...) coz i really learnt new stuff! like ill be "oooh" whenever my brain is challenged or when i finally understand smth frm like econs, maths or lit! haha.. but i miss bball tho.. :( never get to play one.. but played A BIT of soccer that day.. and yeah.. remind me never to do that in sneakers .. it hurts! haha.. speaking of hurting, my back hurts man! i hate it whenever i get backaches..like i cant massage myself man.. haha... and yeah.. wassup with my coughs? its like becoming a habit or wad? my throat always get ticklish then ill cough, right when i want to talk.. annoying right? haiyaaa....

oh wells...

2008-03-23T14:51:00.002+08:00

im backk!! ok i got home ytd la.. but after chatting with mel until 3 am, i was too tired and sleepy
to update... anyway hell! im so glad to be home!

yes, it's hidayah's COMPLAINTIME!

mann! its really damn annoying when ur earpiece suddenly died on you! grrr.. so anyway i went malaysia via woodlands.. slept the whole way thru, susepct its because of my medicine.. then we went so far to the "Hutan Bandar" or smth like that and wad did we eat? prata... wadehell... then i got into nablah's car so we can play with the internet in her car (cool rite?) but in the end cldnt coz her dad was using his phone fer the 3g direction thingy.. so we watched a movie instead! Jumper! a pretty stupid thing to do coz after abt 40 mins or so, i felt nauseous la.. didnt help that my stomach suddenly got cramps/aches/wadeva and my hesad started spinning... maybe it was the after effects of my medicine or that i wasnt fully cured yet.. still had the coughs..... but wahh.. nablah soldiered on and contineud watching man! haha.. and i just tried to sleep at the side but my mission to sleep off the headache failed.. so yeah.. had to continue gong thru that super bumpy and windy road.. and the place was so far la! shesh! then in the end nablah also gave up coz she felt nauseous.. then she was burping and almost throwing up into the plastic bag.. didnt wanna look coz i know ill start vomitting too but i just massaged her back without looking haha...then Cik Ina was nice.. while i was trying to sleep on nablah lap, she massaged my head and nablah also tried massagng my head haha.. thanks yo! but in the end i puked! haha.. long time since i vomitted.. not a great exeprience tho... my jaws got numb and thank god i took it as a sign that i might vomit...then we reached there... beach was nice.. my sis and nab went there and took pics while i rested in the room.. room was also not bad.. not the typical sucky resort rooms if u noe wad i mean.. had dinner and the parents said we were gg out.. they ended up talking fer and hr in the lobby with the owner while we just waited.. we cldnt take it and left.. wanted to stargaze but my bored dad insisted we play badminton with him.. played fer a while to entertain him bleahh... went back to the room coz we cant see any stars.. was too cloudy..

it was a little fun when we got back to the room! my sis and i had this super random pillow fight! then she was taking weird weird photos la! Nerd photo, Cool photo.. the funniest was WRESTLER photo! coz i was typing up my hair when she stuck otu her tongue and said "wrestlaaa!" and attempted to wrestle me or smth! haha.. then i realised that the shower curtain was the exact colour as the orange team jj shirt that i brought! ahha.. coincidence! haha..watched the whole movie Jumper after that.. and ya! i didnt mention abt the moon! it was magnificent! full moon eh! with the clouds and all, i really thot it looked like a pearl still in its shell... nice..

next dae we took our own sweeeet time to go fer breakfast..then we watched our parents swim and just gritted our teeth coz we did bring extra clothes and coz the water was so damn clear.. then we went off to Kelong Aceh to eat lunch, which a long drvie yet again..then we slacked there... it was SOOOO BORINGGG arghh.. was so glad to get back on the road back... but damn i hate the raods and traffic in malaysia.. the raod was SO tiny and the drivers there seriously got no road courtesy or smth man.. argh! then wah... the lorreis kept gg in front of our car and gg so slow! shesh! and yeah, my dad is very scary.. he was driving so fast and trying to cut the stupid lorries... didnt manage to peacefully look out the window because of that.. but i Did get to see the moon again! beautiful! there were stars but cldnt see them much.. then we went jusco fer a while crappy coz cant shop.. so window shopepd fer a whiel and we were off to get home...

was SO glad to be home..i feel more relaxed at home then at the resort.. sweet sweet internet! haha.. oh ya! before we took the boat to the kelong place (a fishing resort on stilts) i met this kitten! it was so small and it was so thin!! and worse, it was blind! there was mucus that kept coming out frm its eyes area and it dried and closed the lids tgt! tried to wipe it off but it didnt work! more mucus came out and it seemed as tho it was hurting it.. i was so sad coz i had to leave it! when i came back with some fish, i cldnt find it!.. sad... then saw another cat! i think she was as big as coco... she was so pretty! and VERY manja! as in friendly! so nice! then there was this other cat that was pregnant! she looked and sounded exactly like coco! onli bigger!... haha...

so yeah.. back home now.. a little bored tho.. oh yeah!! man! i wish i didnt go fer this thing.. like i cld have used my fri or sat to watch Step Up 2! mann... bleahhh

okla.. bleahh.. thats all fer now....

2008-03-20T19:46:00.003+08:00

back to sch todae! very happy to go sch! some pple didnt realise i was gone tho, coz we cant get to meet in sch even if we were present.. haha.. and yea, im ok alr! thanks yall fer the concern ;]

haha.. i wonder why im so happy.. ok i DO know! ok i THINK i know! hahahaa.. im so retarded hehehs.. ok im happy coz i like my class! its no where near united but im working towards it with Christian! (eh gad.. hehe) but then so far im not having any problems getting to know them! which is great!.. i was really nervous mann.. haha.. ;]

and ANOTHER reason is that.. wait lemme think properly.. its because i no longer bother! i no longer care abt it!.. as in seriously.. its true man, wad my sis said.. u CAN manipulate ure memories.. as in history... memories arent memories unless there are feelings attached to it. the rest are just history. hahah.. i made that up lah.. but really mann..and like if those memories werent significant to him, why shld i hold them close to me? haha.. ok i still have that little bit of feelings left but it doesnt hurt as much any more! as in really, im not in self denial.. or then again it cld be that ive gotten hurt so much that im numb to it.. dunno la! haha.. wadeva it is, i have come to accepting it and i have inner peace now.. ;]

actl there Were some bad stuff that happened todae.. i know there was.. damn.. i cant rmbr now! hahaa... its all gd anyways! hhaha

so anyway i was thinking... why do i blog abt my day in sch and such.. i thot of that qn when i was watching the news this morn abt the war in iraq which is STILL gg on! as in.. why do i discuss such trivial matters when there are more impt things out there that we shld be giving our attention to? i felt silly and pathetic really.. pathetic because i hardly know abt the situation in iraq, thailand, malaysia etc when its right on my face! worse, it is really my fault as i always push those things away and instead take comfort in my small private life/world where it (for now) revolves arnd sch, frens, camps, tennis etc. i shld be ashamed of myself mann...

THEN AGAIN... priorities and level of importance is relative.. well, im trying not so sound selfish and self-centered but really, i am currently a student whose responsibility revolves arnd sch events, my class (08A03!!), family, friends and so on.. alright, maybe not responsibility but yeah.. those are among the things i, like many other people of my age and of similar situations, find important. furthermore, i shldnt stop posting abt hows my day and such just becoz it is less impt and rather silly, esp since not THAT many people read it or find it significant. In fact, now that i rmbr, i blog mostly for myself. of course there are other reasons (i first created my blog in sec2 to bitch abt Ass and Asshole! eh asilah, gadis, yall rmbr?? ) but in the end i just wanna look back on my life after a few yrs.. a refreshing thing to do actl! hhaahha

btw, mel bought me this handphone strap.. white cat! haha.. its mildly cute-sy i guess can ah.. hahaha.. no laaa... i LOVE it! haha.. but really, i like it! coz it goes with my phone now.. white too! but aiyo.. im KUROneko.. not SHIROneko.. haha

and yea.. watched "mind your language" during gp (after 30 mins of breakfast with Clement!) hilarious!

and yeah.. gg malaysia fer two daes.. not really looking forward to it.. i hope its not gonna be another malacca trip that i had recently..

ok this has been a super long post! i apologize if anyone fell asleep haha.. (its too late to apologize!..) and yeah.. as MeL requested, i shall end my post with

I love my sweet darling Mel!

(everyone, please puke ;] )

2008-03-18T14:21:00.003+08:00

38 degrees now.. not too bad rite? is a normal healthy person's temp 36.7 or 37.6? i always forget.. well, woke up arnd 830am.. my mom was like "ooh, so hot" when she touched my forehead and arm.. i guess it was hot.. but i didnt think it was That bad.. just that i cldnt sleep the whole night coz i kept sneezing/coughing or my eyes wld tear... haha... sry mom, ya had to climb up and down my stairs to pass to me panadol, wet towel and such.. coz i sleep on a bunk bed thingy except that the lower part of my bed is a desk, plus the stairs are pretty steep...

so now, after some more sleep and tv, i decided to do the maths tutorials. however, it wld be impossible as my dear dear sister is using the gc in sch.. mind u, she is a sec three and do not need that gc as much as i do... so now, i have nothing to do.. my cat is demanding attention (she is lying on my hmks now) but i get dizzy as soon as i run.. now im pretty much just rotting...

~*~

that was ytd man.. haha.. funny.. ok i dunno wads so funny but i actl feel happy now.. ok i shldnt be happy coz im missing two daes of sch.. tsktsk...

so anw, went to doctor ytd after my nap even tho i told my mom there's no need.. haha.. funny.. i thot i cldnt speak coz my throat hurt, so i signaled to her to pass me a piece of paper fer me to write... wrote that i no need go docs and if it gets worst the next dae then go...well, still went to docs anyways.. then eat plus a little grocery shopping then home.. anyway i think the reason why im so tickled is coz of my temperature.. haha.. check this out!

its my temp chart yo! haha.. worst temp then was 38.6.. not that bad still.. haha..notice the huge gradients? haha... its really funny! and ya! one more thing which is funny is that my lips were purple-grey ytd night mann.. haha.. like first time i see myself so pale!

well, its actl no joke coz if it was any worst, it will.. well.. be more serious i guess.. haha (whoops im laughing again!).. but then, i really love doing new things.. duhh its not my first time getting sick, but i think its the first after a LONG time.. coz im pretty strong! haha.. immune system la... haha...the one that i think was this bad (actl worst) was when i was young.. that time i was so sick and my eyes were burning plus i kept hearing people shouting (wah.. so drama) and i kept wanting to run.. then the next few daes when i was alright, i found that i cant help it.. everything i ddi was fast.. writing and running were the things i rmbr clearly.. hhaha.. and ya.. ive never fainted man.. kinda wish to faint some time.. just to noe how it is ya noe? haha..

well, im a-ok now! actl it may get worse like ytd where it was alright in the afternoon then got real bad in the evening.. manz.. my mom's not letting me go sch.. well, i shld really go sch tmw then,.. have to find outs wads been happening plus got f2 vid-making! haha..

oh ya.. the song "Your Star" by Evenescence kept playing in my mind when i was trying to sleep... haha...

okla... i betta go eat my med now.. ;]

2008-03-18T02:15:00.002+08:00

its 230 am and im blogging.. well, just woke up frm my nap which was supposed to help me, but my flu/cold/wadeva is worst now... man... really didnt exepct to get sick.. this epidemic is like trend or smth man... anyway, shall say abt todae in just a few words coz ive got this headache...

dad sent to sch
met my class, nice people, 27 of us
went fer pc, still alright
lit, got two fav quotes
"love, and be silent" - yngest daughter that one
"vice is (i forgot wad), virtue is boring" - lit pple say
civics; guess wad, im class chair
started getting wizzy then
pw was nice, Jlane same grp so can understand better
malay, got lost then got test bleahh
hist fer two hrs.
end of first hr and i was nodding off..
2nd hr my line was,
"hi im nur hidayah. and if i can go back thru history, i wld have stopped my mom frm giving away my cats and making me throw away one of my cat, ginger"
smiles while whole class silent
then went.
was talking nonsense that didnt link
asilah is a bully
went home really headache-y
slept, dreamt of jj
fever got worst
now im not sure if i gg sch tmw..

supposed to be doing maths tutorials now mann.. but i really dont feel like it.. im determined to make my class a lively one! first thing first, must bring them tgt... im also at fault coz i dont maek an effort to sit and mingle with the whole class... wah.. so many tissue paper..ok im nonsense-ing again... oyasumi...

2008-03-15T21:37:00.004+08:00

fri was great!

f2 together wow! (bad eng) anyway i shall summarize the great events that happened with a few words ;]

dont leave me High!
bad commuters XP
ECHOOOO
come out must glammm haha
super cool security guard!
hey mama!
lost with PS and S
BK where we B abt SF (hehe)
truely candid and unexpected!

haha.. unless u were there, i guess u wont understand wad happened! hahah...

then met gad at bugis like an hr late.. searched fer good place.. didnt find any.. went to redhill one instead... very ex but nice! hahah.. very satisfied! funny sia.. the person took SOO long to shampoo my hair la.. and it was getting funny coz it was so long plus she was massaging my temples and neck all.. haha.. yes gad, im a noob.. haha.. usually i just cut and go wadddd.. so anw i tot i looked even more chinese than i alr do..haha! lets look at the before and after pics! xp

(before cut hair! - ok this one the lighting not gd..)

(after! with wind effect!)

(ehh... cant really see my hair)

(there u go!haha)

i dunno WHY but each time and gad take pics, the lightings are great mann! haha

so anyway we went crescent, before that i smiled to the indian workers i passed by... ignored..

haha.. then met christina aka yoga instructor, asilah, wangjin... asilah is the best.. airball 7 times AT LEAST! and the pics we took were hilarious!ahaha.. and ya.. its nice to talk while playing a sport.. like when i was talking to shermain while playing tennis.. pretty nostalgic mann.. the long mirrors! oh i miss them! the service road.. wells.. and ya! me and gad did a pump it fer cadets nite coz there was extra time! haha... and yeah...we REAlly cant call ourselves delta any more... but we are.... DELTA '07!!! hahaha..

then went home..

then todae i went to mira's blk there to pass her her maths notes which i accidently kept.. that girl ah... take her own sweet time sia.. folks! wad is this? haha... got complimented! yes, i like my hair! haha.. then wahh.. parade starts at 12 and at 1145 i was in the bus to boonlay.. haha... nice.. reached there and the parade finished.. even better, buc results wasnt announced... WHY???
oh ya, before that i passed by the workers again.. then that guy was smiling really warmly la so i smiled back.. then he went to his fren at the side and asked me "indian ah?".. then obviously i said "oh no, malay" haha... smiling is a good gesture! but funny sia... dont i look malay? many have thot that i was chinese.. then got some think im indian.. hahaha.. neh-mind ah! keep smiling!

so went ps.. saw some malay dance.. dammit.. shld have stayed to watch.. forgot that kahkah might be there.. actl i thot he cld be, but didnt search... coz we were all gg in already.. then ate then went home... nice nice..

sigh... i cant wait fer sch.. yep.... OH YA!!!!!!!! i fergot!!!! my appeal was successful! yes! no more
malay lit! haha... eng lit here i come!

and yea.. kinda miss mel.. haha..

and yea... GADIS U BETTER GO DOCTOR AND GET WELL I TELL U! SAME GOES WITH ALL THOSE RETARDED PPLE WHO WENT TO CAMP AND GOT SICK!.. haiyooooo.. take care people... drink water... rest.. dont play in the rain any more.. and.... SMILE!

hahaha

2008-03-13T13:00:00.002+08:00

put ya right hand up!
put ya left hand up!
put ya right hand up!
put ya left hand up!
WADEVA! WADEVA! WADEVA!

thats all i can say to you ;]

~*~

mann... ytd i was looking thru the ncc pics at gad's frenster.. actl a lot of things happened in that 4 yrs.. the drama, the bonds, everything came back... wow... really.. the highlights were me gg fer ophir (where i met francis! haha) , shooting competitions (imma shooter!) and duhh icep.. (got to hold the ncc flag mann.. whoots!)...then i was looking at the retarded pics la... man.. i miss shermain.. yeah.. random thots.. i really really miss delight.. wah... ive really mia myself frm them.. as in i nvr bothered to keep in contact.. bleahh.. im so bad mann...actl, all the icep frens ive made are also well.. gone too... sigh.. but tmw and sat will be the day... its been a long time since ive smelt creznc.. cadets nite.. not too sure if i can come but master parade is a MUST!.. hmm.. i just rmbred smth... my no3 boots.. haha... diagonally cut man, the heels.. the tight no3, the folding of the no4 sleeves, the green gutters, bun net, solid bang (have u ever heard a solid bang frm no4 boots? sweeet), the commands, 200 push ups and pumpings, my hubby!( ze rifle)... the list goes on.. haha... that girl in green, armycat.. ahaha

wellz... ive been using this time quite responsibly.. read up on hist, amaths(everything just came back mann) and econs, did some chores.. aiya.. okla, my bad.. coz i always wake up at 1pm hehe.. its the holidaes mann! haha.. i wan maths hmk... ahaha..

cant wait fer sch to start! ;]

2008-03-10T20:01:00.003+08:00

wah... juanita damn power man.. she found out so many pple's blogs... ok she cld have just asked them fer it but yeah.. hehe..i lazy to link any more sia..so if yall wanna go to other peeps' blogs, u wont get it frm me! hehhs..

anyway life been nice! (oh pardon my pathetic vocab...) thurs was idiot's idiotic day, which makes it a fun day! haha .. then wad else i do ah? ok cant rmbr..wadeva.. fri was great! met mira and suhaila (with A LOT of others) at banquet.. haha.. i was so mean to mira by saying that her uniform doesnt suit her! haha.. but i wanna try some dae! haha.. and suhaila was almost treating me like it was our first meeting like that.. bleahh.. joel was hilarious too! Hush! little baby dont u cry... haha! the vids were funny la! i tell u, i have NO IDEA wadehell retard and idiot were donig but it was funny man! like idiot was scolding retard's reflection? wassup with that? ahah

anyway todae was great! haha.. met mira, breakfast first (where i spilled some milo- yet again) then jj! ok i shldnt have worn team jj shirt la (but its so comfy and can tuck out!) coz pple were looking at me like i snr or as tho im part of the camp.. which im not... dang.. then did maths.. which was just super RETARDED coz mira was so BIMBO! my goodness! shesh! 5 to the power of wad equals 25? 5!! hahahaaaa.. then was emo.. real emo.. so we danced! was supposed to go running but since it was raining plus the camp was gonna use the track, we danced instead! nice mann.. like really destressed la... haha! we made dance moves like so quickly mann.. then at the end we made a cheer! shant show it here coz we'll ruin the surprise! ( fer wad surprise i also dunno) haha! but its very vain and bimbotic too! haha.. like so candid and random! nice... then ate at banquet then walked home frm jp.. which was really pleasant..;]

oh yeah.. btw.. i hate that im so fickle-minded.. even if ive alr made a decision, il still be thinking twice coz i have the option to back out.. smth like that... i was so indecisive abt joining SLOs la.. im really really sry abt that aubrey.. but now im REally not gonna go fer it... haha.. no choice! nvm.. shall use this time wisely (yeah, right)...

and BEfore i forget AGAIN, let me just say that i was seriously reminded of no3 top when i wore my sis's small top uniform..

and yes, i feel damn noob and pathetic when i watch kahsing's vid of kaba modern and all their dances.. really mann.. waohh..

i love coco! :3

ok la.. thats all fer todae. thank you and have a bimbotic dae! ;]

2008-03-05T21:04:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes.. im not supposed to blog and study instead.. but this is really GREAT news!!

Coco is WELL! she not sick any more! yayy!!!!

yeahhh not many knew she was sick in the first place.. just a few days ago the vet said that she may be put to sleep.. me and my sis was crying in the middle of the night.. then ytd it was 50-50 chance of survival... and just a few mins ago the vet say she can be discharged already!!!! wahhh! kidney failure man... she is not VEry healthy now la... as in still have to go fer jabs and must be observed... but she pulled thru! thank god! ;]

ok since im blogging already, i might as well say a littel abt the few daes that passed by..

mon, was a little depressed abt coco and i felt really lonely... had mel and f2 with me but .. but playing "follow tempo ready go" with the three idiots was fun! was throwing the track bits on each other and all.. haha..

tues, ytd was a bit better.. had bball where i really laugh laugh all... played bullet with aubrey and kelman.. fun eh! wasnt so demoralized coz i could shoot! guess i play better with no pressure.. haha.. or was just lucky la! haha..

todae, damn sian coz had foru hrs break.. crashed lit where i just made a long poem.. lit wad.. haha... crashed geog too.. very interesting actually.. made notes! haha.. but in the end nodded off.. cant help it la.. haha... then family dance! sad no hey mama but its ok! its a prelude to jj talenttime! then games at LN.. fun sia! haha..

so anyway.. hmm.. actually i a bit sad.. the pple whom i used to be close to arent very close now.. actually can la.. hehhs.. yeahh... treasure wad u have, no matter how little.. and ya.. i really miss og8.. the first grp of pple that i really love.. as in.. we WEre bonded la.. but so fast? why cant we hang out at the bball or tennis court during breaks like before? actually the sad thing is that we CAN.. just that circumstances divided us.. just look... too many of us are ogls and ogls are further separated to families.. sighh.. is it too late already? i dunno la.. im like reading aubrey's blog and i really agree with wad she's saying.. i cant put my feelings to words as nicely as she can..

og7, if any of u are reading this, just to let u noe.. im feeling the same as aubrey.. its not wadeva diff between og8 and og7, but its damn different la.. the feeling as an ogl and as a camper..

anyway here's a little bit of my poems! (did a short one during geog! ;] )

LIT CLASS:

Running away
Glanced back a second
Lips sealed so shut
Heart screams silently

(this was actually very long.. 6 stanzas.. but shorten la ha.. haha)

GEOG CLASS:

Look back and fall
Run fast and fall
Pause a second
Forget it all

hehehh

2008-03-02T14:33:00.002+08:00

yupz.. my mom reads my blog so i guess yall can imagine how screwed i was this morn.. hehh.. yeah... i noe i have been having too much fun.. that i shld be studying.. and a lot of stuff.. some times i wish i have a great command of english and can write like cheem cheem like amirah.. then it wont be that easy to understand! (noticed an irony?) my mom cld be reading this also lei.. hurhur...

anyway previous post was too long fer me to add in my thanks.. aiya.. got a lot seyy.. i wish i can just copy paste frm gad's blog coz i feel the same.. haha.. i lazy la.. hehs.. but then there's a grp of peeps that i think have not been given credit at all.... its my ogmates.. i want to thank OG7 for accepting me.. really.. how easily can u suddenly accept that there's another person who will lead u when u dont even noe that person...yepz... so thanks guys..yall really rocked! ;]

and ya... i really think that the positive attitude have really rubbed off to me..hehh.. like for once i do chores at home and had fun doing it! haha.. was dancing to some songs at the same time la.. haha.. shld have seen my parents' face when i was wiping the dishes la.. hehehe.. yeah hor.. like sat afternoon (woke up at 4pm hehe) when my mom woke me up in the worst possible way, i didnt say anything lei.. and it didnt really make the rest of my day bad.. oh ya, i havent been talking a lot at all coz my voice sounds weird.. hehe..

hmm.. realised that the song Apologize is not a bad song to make a dance with...

hmm.. i need sch tie.. and sch uniform.. hehe..

hmm... frm now on i cant use the com or anything else after 11pm.. which.. is.. hmm..

coco... she.. hmm..

2008-03-01T18:22:00.002+08:00

wahh.. O2 is over.. and i have a lot to say abt the three daes..okla... i shall attempt not to post too huge an entry..

btw, im a jjcian now! wooohoooo! ;]

ok first day:
the games wahh.. haha.. there was beatboxing! cheerleading on stage with retard was priceless mann.. i wan to eat mee-siam my ham, my hump,my hump, my hump! haha
had mass dance with delwin, which was Super fun haha.. then had to dance with a snr coz idi-ot needed to rest (the poor thing.. haha)
had lunch and then had to run to do the structure thingy (which we were told abt onli the nite before)
ended me, shakina, lynnette and syiva working on it
missed mass games becoz of that but was Very happy to hear that og7 enthu! ;]
dinner then songsinging.. sent shawn home first before that..
then night games! run run run arnd! didnt get to know wads really gg on in front coz was at the back trying to squeeze everyone to front..
but during the debrief (after nite games) was nice coz idi-ot massaged my back.. hell! it was nice lor! first time someone strong enough haha! thanks ah! the way u massage also very funny lei.. hahaa...
then supper ah, the milo damn nice la! thanks food attahees and food pple! got hotdog bun also.. wah.. nice!
then debrief and lights out..

second dae:
ahaha.. waking campers in the morn was funny! cheer! haha
had pt and dunno how again, i was on stage with faizal and jackie! hehe
breakfast, assembly then og time
wah.. telematch was like zzzzooooommm! very fast! haha..
but then after that Dong Ming blacked out and i brought him to pe porch..ran to LN and back.. mr leow damn funny la! wad using the rubber duckie and making funny talks! i dunno how to explain la! but i was like stunned there! haha.. then ren hao was nice, helped me with my water bottle coz i was holding the milo..
stayed with DM in LN for some time.. Aubrey also helped look after him so i went to Juanita.. she was sick la.. stubborn also.. almost didnt to eat the cough medicine coz scared she will be too sleepy to go for KW...and ya! she was snoring after that! haha..
DM went mass dance, i gave it a miss (ME, missing mass dance, can u Believe it?? aha) to look after ju and yue yin.. then yue yin left.. i took the time to rest a bit too.. then went mass dance for one song, 5 colours, with Watermelon! was nice! and wad he said after that was funny too!

we were back in LN when me, him and Garrick were talking.. then Watermelon go ask Garrick , "like her eh? do u think she is chio?"' Garrick nvr say anything while i gave my wadehell look.. then Garrick say my features very sharp then W was like "but i really think u look gd when u smile," me smiles, "yeah! like just now u pose during dance then i suddenly thot wah, hidayah suddenly look chio!" hahahaha.. something like that! oh ya.. now he not watermelon! he is ShiroNeko while im KuroiNeko.. whitecat and blackcat!

then the mass dancers came to LN and just wah.. they just die-ed.. haha.. then one Wonderful thing happened!! Damian asked me to dance wtih retard for JJ nite! wahh! dream come true! haha...
ok.. then brought Ju to family spot where i finally saw jackie's scary side.. as in seriously..
after lunch went for KW! wah!! fun seyy! coz og7 ROCKED! seriously mann! haha.. i kena waterbomb everything sia and i was wearing bikila! haha..
was late for scdc coz i didnt noe the time plus there was onli me and yao an mostly and that i really wanted to spend time with og7!
did the structure in a whole diff way,
ran to ops rm and back, spent 5 secs just to play "follow the leader" with og7, nice!
came back for prep of jj nite!
it was very funny at that time eh! Apple was like doing the "Who's gonna win" cheer with helium eh! so funny!! there was another snr taking vid also! hahaha... then got one time the mass dancers were backstage when we hear "FAT FAT FAT!" hahaha... it was Perlyn(sp?) trying to get in and there was a table blocking there... she cld have asked for help la! haha...
then mr chua was like saying f2 dance nice! some more he look at jackie and me he also get high!! haha!! jackie looks stupid while i look pro! cool!!! hahahaaaa

then it was...

JJ Nite!!!!!
wahhhh!!! woohoooo!!! hyperness!!
wahh!! so many pple came! met desmond (he was nvr in jj) too!!! wahh! then ran to backstage and it was so funny! coz me and yao an (aka pornstar) was like groooving to the f1's dance song! haha! then f2 dance!!!! so fun sia!!! got so high! was sweating SO much after just our dance and my throat was super dry ah.. but got high still when i saw everyone on the floor having fun!..just drank a LOT of tap water.. then there was f3 dance, nice! and council dance! super smooth mann! the guys looked great! heheee.. then had mass dance!! me and howie oh my darling!! haha! wahh.. then really got no break in between la! then hendy and me for geeks get the girl haha! very nice also coz hendy, same as delwin, pull very strong! then got 5 colours, clock, pump it, chicken dance and chori chori! i screwed up a lot for the mass dance la! haha.. ddint get to practice first ma! then wan to emo a bit after that also cant!.. everyone still too high.. ahha

then supper! wah... so happy ah... got pple help me carry and gimme milo also.. wahh.. nice.. ;]
then we played wild wild west!!! (hehe.. cut into our wash up time! ;p ) so fun la! make mistaek here and there! ren hao and yangzhi damn pro! haha! in the end damn funny la! yangzhi winner so kena forfeit!! ate bun with sedrilyn! mouth to mouth haha! sedrilyn also nvr object! haha..

then debrief got complimented.. wahh.. really wahh.. thanks mr leow..
then kena pump but nvm... heh

then slept..(mr chu didnt let us stay awake.. ;[ )

last dae:
woke up super early to bathe.. saw howie and couldnt resist poking his nose once! haha.. then went arnd looking for yao an but he woke up late la.. idiot was weird.. haha.. woke up, went arnd, then went backstage, stone then when i ask wads wrong, he asked " can borrow sleeping bag?" hahahaha.. he went to sleep back and left his yellow pillow in my sleeping bag la! haha..
then went down, did work, briefed, stayed to do work, breakfast then did work again, then eweb..
e-web... was like trying to make sure not too high.. it went okayy la.. but then at the end when mr chua talking all, i was thinking a lot... i was cutting the rafia string when .... hmm... a lot of thots ah... like... i cld have done better to make og7 bond more.. like im such a bad ogl.. nvr bond that much with ogmates..started tearing there..then iwas thinking of o1og8.. now we have fallen out a little... and i miss them all.. seriously lor.. then was like thinking how much worst i wld feel if my appeal didnt get thru.. then i thot of f2 ogls.. we finally got close and o2 is over.. really.. sighh.. me and aubrey quite funny la.. wanted to cry outside so they wont see us then we ran to one door and the door nvr open, the other door als onvr oepn and we ended up laughing and crying at the door.. haha

after all that, og7 pic! just sad that yaoan wasnt there...
then went pizza hut! fun mann! wahh! haha... aubrey's story all... then me and aubrey went back to jj only to find that the shadows damn high! high and sickminded lor omg!! hahahaahah... like really wadehell lor!haha... then bball was nice! the shadows came and aiksong also got crazy! haha!! aubrey Hendball! whitsle! hahah!!that was funny! then wadeva pair and shoot! haha.. then shadows went back.. played bullet with hendy and aubrey, broguht my moral down coz they damn cun la!!! dammit! haha.. then it was so painful not being able to laugh coz my voice gone... then very down for no reason...

then got home.. i think i was down because... i dunno la.. when i got home, i found out my cat, coco is very sick...she is at the clinic now... maybe i was down coz it was a sign.... ok NO! COCO IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT!... im very sad now eh.. like i always nvr spend time with coco... dunno la....

2008-02-24T19:00:00.002+08:00

im back frm the zoo! haha!

yepz.. actually was annoyed before gg coz very hard to fnd clothes dammit! i need to shop! yeahh.. then went with my aunt, cousin and grandma.. my uncle just stayed in his bus to rest coz he works at night..then go arnd arnd.. fun ahh.. camwhore with my sisters.. played mini boogle with my sisters and my aunt.. my aunt kept pushing me so she can see the thing and ill be like "cik ta!!!" hahahaha... i kept winning tho.. hahahaha..ok no la..

my fav part was when i was sitting at the bench that faces the reservoir.. the wind and the calmness of it all... wahh... my worries really left me eh.. wanted to stay there longer but had to leave already...

wad was i supposed to say?.. oh.. im sorry.. its just that my worries have really left me.. hehe

oh yeahh... yes! talking DOES cure u of fever! laughter too! coz its the BEST medicine! hhaha..oh yeah.. mel was sick then she was crapping at msn saying like "i feel like dancing i miss mass dance i want to fly".. then she said "i feel like dying" and i quickly just called her.. haha...

come on hidayah! wad was in ur mind that u forgot?..

seriously.. i cant rmbr wad i was abt to talk abt.. dance? yeah.. i still wanna make a dance mann.. ;[.. then wad? OH YA...

actually this is a more random thing actually.. as in it doesnt really matter so this is......

DAYAHHH'S CRAPABOUT TIME!

me and mel were talking abt the moon.. my msn nick is Rosemoon la.. so anyway i got reminded of wad i had written before.. i don't think it can be called a poem ah.. hehehe.. but now, more than ever, i realised that it truely suits me.. it was me emo-ing (a bit la,..) last time when i came up with this.. apparently i think a lot of "flowery"- type of lang (mel say one) when i emo.. so anyways, here it is..

the moon weeps as her source of joy
stays the distance.
she awaits for that time.
when an eclipse occur,
be in awe.
The moon's acme of beauty.

i dont expect anyone to really understand it at a glance.. in fact, like my previous poem, it has Alot of meanings ah.. but damn it suits me! haha... btw everything i type in my poem ah.. got no accidental punctutations one.. its really like how i want it to be...

anyway now that i think abt it.. Blackcat and Rosemoon... im usually blackcat.. but deeper, im rosemoon... thats when i more poetic, lit-like, emo a bit... i dunno.. haha.. crapp..

so anyway.. i hope tmw will be a good dae for everyone and hopefully for me too! (why am i so hyper?.. crazyy..)

shabooya! (i miss doing that ;] )

2008-02-23T13:12:00.002+08:00

ponned sch ytd.. actually i can onli vaguely rmbr saying to my mom that i was too tired and then i slept back.. slept A LOT ytd...

did some thinking too.. actually, there's nothing to think abt.. i must accept that im a saint... i must get back on my two feet.. ive already had my fun.. its time... but im so afraid..

the thing is that i still have a choice..

afraid that i wont be myself.. afraid that it will be a repeat of my life in crescent, having pple arnd me yet feeling alone all the time... i dunno.. i guess i got too comfortable in jj where i had close friends, that homely feeling, the culture that truely suited me, the moon...

i miss how sun.. i noe i keep saying that it may seem to lose its meaning.. but i really miss him.. i realised that i was looking at every detail of his face on thurs nite while we were talking and passing down the bags.. as tho i didnt wan to allow myself to take him for granted or to forget his face.. i was super happy when i did with him that handshake and the cheerelading thing.. dammit i forgto the stomping one.. and why did i forget? coz i rmbred one of the sa dance move.. dammit sai...oh ya..i tell u ah.. mira was like "its ok wad.. we can have outside frens".. outside frens sounds so impersonal and distant to me and i dont like it..

i wonder if ill be remembered.. does it matter? yea.. coz i remember everyone.. dang.. i dunno wad im talking abt now.. why didnt i put jj as my second choice? no time for regrets.. i am a saint.. i cant call myself a jjcian.. duhh i cant call myself a jj leader even if i appealed back, i nvr got to go thru with them the hardest times - really being an ogl...

nya nya.. im feeling damn pathetic now.. its just jc mannn!! singapore is so damn small that we can meet each other oneeee.. ok... im just a loyal plus emotional person okayy.. like my commitment level is still damn high even if i dont put in my 100% commitment level.. geddit? ok nvm...

ok if i really minus loyalty, my emotions and my selfishness,
JJ is gd coz its damn near while sa is really damn far,
SA is gd coz they are really gonna push me to study while jj may not,
JJ is gd coz not so religion type while sa is la,
SA is gd coz its more english while jj mandarin la,
JJ's values are gd coz it suits me and is strong while sa like.. ,
SA the facilities are damn new and gd while jj very old and rather pathetic,
JJ the cca gd coz its so noob that i can join but sa not ahh,
SA got name and pple can recognize sa while jj pple will raise one eyebrow,
JJ the structure of the sch very gd coz can see pple and can connect to others coz its small but sa like the buildings separate pple,
SA the place near town (i think), while jj the hang out places very limited to the neighbourhood (but i dont mind actually)
JJ got synthetic field while sa doesnt!,
SA uniform and sch song nicer than jj (lame reason)
JJ the food very cheap compared to sa la..(impt lor!)
SA
JJ
SA
JJ
SA
JJ

........

mondae shall be ddae.. ddae where i shall give sa a chance.. it will be my last dae to make a choice..hmm.. hurry think hidayah!

2008-02-22T13:41:00.004+08:00

Singapore won the bid for YOG!!

hahaha ytd was great mannn! ok.. frm start..

go SA, had pc which was a race arnd the sch, got third so we got 40c voucher for the sch fruits stall, bleahh, had break where we hung out with desmond, nice, then discipline talk where the teacher was OBLIGED to welcome us, slept the whole way, ass, then malay, i dont like the teacher, yawns, then break, crapped with the malay pple, honestly prefered to just sleep, hmm, then subject regsitration, snoree, then....

the jj saints unite! (cant call ourselves jjcians ma.. :( )

hahah.... we all got into ellysa HUGE car (jealous mann) and went to ac for ellysa to appeal while we just stay arnd there talking to devika and sijia went arnd mia-ing coz she got A LOT of frens .. haha.. then went to marina sq where we all, tho not very hungry, ate kfc! then went back to the padang.. took pics, dance a bit then they came!!!! wahhhh.. then after putting our bags, we were like lost children and then became ushers! okla.. was hard at first, then the peeps started to move in to the back and filled up the place nicely.. but NOT FAIR! mira and ellysa got on stage and danced with apple lor! wahlau!! haha.. then dance dance! crazy!!

then got interviewed! malay radio eh! cool huh?? then another lady interviewed me but then her qns are like essay qns la wahlau! how to ans?? now i know how hard it is to be interviewed, in malay esp! ya la! i spoke malay baku la but some words just HAD to come out in eng! hahah

then ran back to dance "oh my darl" with Jialiang!!! yay!!! so fun! then all the dances la, being crazy everything was so fun! was dying of thirst tho, but still went on!! then the announcement ah.. i was like squeezing the hands of the peeps beside me la!! hhaha.. and singapore won!! yay!! but hell i was tired.. then wah..parrrrtttaaaayyy!! apple damn pro sia! met snr and danced with mark!!! haha.. then gathered to the back and cheered and sang "home".. damn that song.. so annoyingly apt for jj... haha...

then went to eat!

had really hoped that we wont be separated to families and shadows but yep... but then i still chose my family! it was small and some had to leave soon so we ate at kfc+pizza hut+taco bell there! had lasagna! haha.. then talk talk, complain complain, listen listen, comfort comfort... wahh.. jackie's a real soldier mann.. oh ya i tell u ah... i was like waohhh when i saw his results slip la.. so many A1s! dang.. oh ya.. i still haven open his toblerone.. then went to cityhall mrt, saw f3, f2 had to leave, chose f2 and left.. so funny la, the trip home! aubrey had to go the other way tho...

thats mark! so funny la! ok frm first pic

"hmm?"

"eh hidayah look!" (i laugh so much that it came out blur! asked him to do again while i took another pic of him)

"you think very easy ah?"

"eh hurry take!"

"hahahahaah"

then went home with yao an.. so nice can.. waited for me while i went toilet (to put on my skirt- tore a bit of the hem coz i rushed :p) then talked crapp thruout.. oh ya! i must Accept, i must Adapt and i must... er.. A? hahahahaha...

mann... the moon was so beautiful ytd.. its great todae too.. sighh..

2008-02-19T21:55:00.002+08:00

actually i wanted to post abt ytd.. me and mel skipping class just to talk and then me and jess finally having a first bonding time, which was great! gg jp and all...then family2 dinner, bond more wtih JL, Mark and Juanita, jackie very sweet, gave me toblerone.. but i cant think of the details now...

im sad to leave jj

really.. everything, everyday there has been so surreal, miracles all the time.. i knew this was coming.. the first day there and i already told myself that im not staying.. i still remember how i introduced myself to my family the first time.

"Hi! Im Nur Hidayah. i got 11-2 9 for my os. im confirmed not staying but while im here, im gonna put in ALL my effort for this! "

yeahh.. og8.. no need to say.. yall know i love u guys..

f2.. it has been a real short time with yall.. but really, i love yall too.. all the things we do tgt, during those hard times, we still pulled thru it all! Together! we got stuff.. ;]

the close frens that ive made so far.. i really dont wan to lose yall!

howsun, how am i to find another u? cheerleading.. who can i do it with any more? honestly, u are a real sunshine to me.. i just read ur blog..

kau tau kan tentang masalah aku? mungkin kau bukan cakap tentang aku, tetapi aku cuma nak katakan.. aku anggap kamu sebagai sahabat, sahabat handai atau apa apa lah... yang penting, aku percayakan engkau.. kau tahu tak? kau benar benar buat aku rasa lebih baik apabila kau sendiri yang menanya aku apa masalah aku (malam itu kau sms bila camp).. bagi aku itu cukup.. jadi janganlah fikir yang "saya rasa tak guna , memang , tak lulus menjadi seseorang's kawan " sebab dengan cara kau tersendiri, kau telah pun menolong dan memberi kesan pada ramai orang, termasuklah aku... ;]

hehe... my malay very gd right? hehe...

mel, do you noe that u are a real blessing to me? u were there for me when i really needed somebody and when i was truely down.. u are also the first person ive ever talked to for so long on the phone.. hrs and hrs haha...u were the one too that helped me bring up my confidence.. i tell u.. this few lines are not enuf to express my feelings now.. in fact those four pages arent either..

hendy, right now we dont spend much time tgt coz of diff families.. but i still remember that you too were there for me.. yeah, it was the day i was damn sian.. i tell u ah.. my day became better just when i received that call and u said "YIPPA ANDENEH!".. and the time we've spent, i thank you for it..

i wan to thank and mention a lot of pple.. like Aaron, Arthur, Sharon, Jackie, Jia Liang, Mark, Hazlin, Shakina, Sherwin, Kahsing, Francis, Juang shiow, Aubrey.. like there really is a lot.. just that i a little braindead now..

right now.. i really dunno wads gonna happen next.. im gonna give sa ogls as much support as i can and give sa a chance as much, tho inevitably lesser, as jj.... am i gonna cheer for sa after these few days or weeks? will i lose contact with my friends now? will it get awkward to talk to them?

haha.. i dont even noe which is better.. loving sa or jj.. as in after some time ah... hmm.. im really gonna miss the cheers...all the mass dance... my family dance... the field (yes the field!).. the bball court.. the canteen auntie and her food... the ah-ah song.. the area outside library.. im also gonna miss the jj cat, nugget!.. playing bball.. malay lessons.. taking pics and vids.. the clouds and wind there.. the noisy passing jets..feeling excited to go sch.. meet my frens... and a lot more

jj really allowed me to be myself.. sa.. lets see how it goes..

2008-02-18T00:32:00.002+08:00

swensens dae!

fun eh! ok starting i was more sad than angry at mira coz she cldnt make it.. was really hoping to gather everyone ma... then wah... dammit la! Howie the Retard go and prank me la! wah.. wad IMMIGRATION thing? crazy.. say he had to go home and cannot go out coz got this immigration thing he had to do.. shld have seen my face when i showed syria the msg la.. so sad u noe! ok then we made our way to orchard.. sry nabilah! make u confuse onli.. hehe... we all except gad and howei were like town noobs la! haha...

then went swensens! funny! spongebob doesnt live in the tree la howie! haha... then wah.. exceed 100 bux ah... was 137 bux altgt.. but its okay.. ill be alright.. hehehe.. then went to taka for some pretzels first! i bought the tiger balm cream...very imp! then heeren.. the nice puma shoes are like 259 bux! dammit.. then hmv.. wanted to buy the Step up 2 ost la but didnt in the end.. shall watch the movie first! dance dance! haha... then went back swensens buy ice cream! syria went home first..gadis bite very big eh!! then to far east.. nab looked looked arnd while gad and howie dance mass dance.. they were dancing while walking also la wahlau.. haha... but i dance after that! haha.. got videos!

then gad buy watch.. then we left first... went home.. cldnt go to jess's coz it was getting late for me and retard had to suddenly leave... yeah.. why do pple smoke? sucks mann.. think look so cool ah? check ur yellow teeth and black lips la! ... taking pics in mrt was fun! lollipop! haha.. got a lot of funny stuff! but i cant remember now.. oh yeah, howie control gad using lollipop! haha

wah.. fun dae! oh ya,... its so fun to see my cat play with bubbles! when finish she will be like meowing as tho asking where the bubles were... hahaha...ok i tired.. shld sleep so gdnite!

meow!

2008-02-16T20:32:00.003+08:00

i didnt post abt vdae right? ok hmm... now i cant really remember coz i just got back frm camp.. oh oh! ok remember liao.. but wont say much... very tired now

vdae:
- watched very sad malay movie.. Retard's a Sensitive New Age Man! haha
- jia liang very nice! give like FIFTY roses to pple duhh including me hahaha.. sew his pants then he bought me drink!
- got a lot of sweets!
- thanks mel for ur letter! very nicely done eh! i embarrassed of mine lei...
- mira pangseh me (say wanna go jp since we skipping hist but in the end nvr)
- kahkahsing very nice eh.. wahh.. let me play his psp and stuff.. like didnt just ignore me la.. haha.. i kept failing the trainings tho...
- go dance with our tiny family (they had plans la...) for less than an hr :(
- this time i nvr wait for mira they all, just went jp.. yup alone.. met shadiq, passed a jnr that didnt greet or even looekd at me.. felt invisible lei..
- bought a watch, nike bottle, and a bottle of soap bubbles! smell like chocolate one lei!

yup.. then went home...

then OGL camp

well, i didnt go sch.. then went sch at arnd b4 3.. met mel, funny! NOTHING! hahaahah... oh yeah.. one funny thing happened.. not very funny la but just hmmm.. ok wadeva! ok we saw this red paperclip twisted to a heart shape on the floor.. mel said, while pointing at it, "eh! heart shape!" STEP.. a guy just walked pass us (by the front) and stepped squarely on the heartclip wtihout noticing! haha.. then another girl kicked it to me when she passed by..

ok next was mass dance!!! i LOVE to dance! and jj mass dance can really help you sweat it all out! i sweated my fever out before, and it helps me forget my probs and emoness.. haha.. LIKE DRUGS! then wad ah? oh ya, family time.. dance again! Gimme one Mark clap! (clap!) i wanna dance! hey mama! ahha.. then had the singsong time..had to sing "lenggang lenggang kangkung" on stage seyy, wahlau! haha..then cried a bit thinking of mira and gad.. teared a bit more when my emoness came back.. then had night games! run twice onli la.. haha.. then the memorable part was i guess the part when Mr "handsome" called me. Long story cut short, he like complimented me by saying that he find that i look like a 6/10 (omg la...) i asked why and he say something abt "can see frm the sparkle in your eyes" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH hahahahahha.. its a good thing that he says that, coz it means that my campers may just view me that way too.. which is good, right? hahah wadeva..

well, slept at 2, woke up at 330am, fire drill, kena scolded, then did pt, then did nerd dance haha, then moved stuff i think, then..changed, then family dance!!! we got 7.75/10!gd gd gd!! can improve of course but its gd! ahaha.. then breakfast.. was trying to sleep and jialiang kept singing to me, then.... telematch was it? yea.. then the talk frm mr koh.. wah... thank you sir for even addressing us... wahh.. i was falling asleep la.. tried to sit str. ncc style so wont fall asleep like totally.. it worked! still sleepy but didnt fully doze off... then mass danced! i better remember the dance moves la.. haha.. oh ya.. i slapped yao an to wake him up until it was red! he asked for it! ok i apologised after that la.. haha.. then kinetic warfare! ok lor.. jus that there is just too little pple in one og la... then clean up, change, singsong again, had talks by two teachers? yeah, me and mark were trying hard not to fall asleep but as of right now, i cant remember a thing abt the first part.. haha.. then dismiss then paints, play bubbles! then home...

a few bad things that happened during camp
- broke my pink hairclip
- my supposedly waterproof watch spoiled
- lost one of my ears studs.. really sad :(
- had a lot of stomachaches

i think thats it! very tired.. got a lot of details actually.. but nvm la... haha

edit:

haha.. this just abt some of my thots... so anyway.. i was thinking... like ncc really got me prepared for this type of expectations.. like the standard and all that is lower than creznc (duhh) haha but yeah.. all the initiative crap... then they did stuff like pumping those of higher positions in frnt of us.. so familiar... i got very angry seeing somebody down pumping.. i got angry coz i hesitated knocking down too... bleahh..

yeah.. then i was thinking abt F2.. like we really can work tgt in bad situations ehh.. like our dance, the first one, was done in 2 hrs la! haha.. we always have probs but somehow we all can adapt and still work on it! well done F2! lubbz yall allzzz! hahah yeah! lunch time ah, we crowned our Twit King and Queen! haha.. hu? Aubrey and Jeanle! hahaah

i was thinking of whether im up for this ogl thing.. i can... and ill always put in my 100%.. but shld i? shld i put in so much effort on something that may not last?.. there's this thing at the back of my head that kept replying "YES!" to wad i just asked.. nothing major is stopping me, really.. dunno la.. yes, i shld push on.. i didnt join ogl just to dance and cheer.. i wan to give back wad jj ogls gave me during that short camp.. not back to them, but to the upcoming pple.. yeah.. i shld help pass on the same high and crazy jj culture.. something i cldnt do abt creznc..

i was also thinking.. like i really shldnt take my frens for granted.. i have been so preoccupied with my own selfishness that i get annoyed at them too easily.. i shld really stop thinking abt things that didnt matter and is just plain stupid and instead make full use of my time with the ppel i care abt... no more.. no more..

oh ya! another thot! CHOCOLATE SMELLING BUBBLES DOES NOT TASTE GOOD! hahahaaha... yeah.. we were playing with bubbles while waiting for the paint to dry and i tried catching one with my mouth.. unfortunately, i was successful! haha.. it burst in my throat so for quite some time, i kept coughing! haha.. its funny! bubbles are so fun to play with! its great for bonding time too! coz i finally saw my family mate like participating with that smile one his face.. haha..its great to play with when ure down too! haha..

ok la... i think a lot and i cant possibly say out all my thots here so ill stop now.. haha! oh ya but one last thing!

HEY MEL! are you thinking wad im thinking B1?
i think i am B2!
NOTHING!

haha.. this is coz me and mel were on the phone when we realised that we didnt know wad we were talking already and in both our minds were nothing but "i dunno. i dunno. i dunno." haha.. its like we said to each other.... "yeah.. i cant Think of anyThing. like we both got noThing mann" something like that! haha..

2008-02-13T21:42:00.003+08:00

ok todae was just too weird

okayy.. so morn.. first REALLY weird and shocking thing.... (drum rolls!).. saw idi-ot in same bus GOING TO SCH!... haha.. REally! coz he always nvr come.. haha.. oh yeah, then funny coz we walking walking then he suddenly walked straight to the small yellow and black pole so he kena at... haha... if yall dont get it, too bad! haha

then go sch, mel pass me something and... erm... yeah.. that was totally weird.. like gad also like told everyone like some amplifyer (sp?).. like WADEHELL RIGHT??

then malay was fun.. got new person! yay! ok dunno why i yay la.. hahaha.... then lit.. onli thing nice then was that.. hmm.. oh ya.. i wrote on arthur's arm "wake up!" coz he was sleeping and then he wrote "tired" in chinese on my hand.. his handwriting very nice! realised he still had the tattoo that i wrote on his hand ytd "ねこ", which means cat in jap!.. yeah then i was wasting time and keeping myself awake by writing more stuff on my hand.. and my thumb nails were nice! blackcat! then all the other lessons were bleahh..

oh ya! this is another weird plus shocking thing! i. never. pon. any. lessons. todae. hahahahahaha

then family twoooooo... dance dance dance! haha.. a bit stress la no doubt but fun ah! then principal go talk to us so suddenly... "Open ur minds!" i think he meant to be more open minded or wad.. yeah.. THAT was weird! yeah.. then emo a bit... Jia liang was really very sweet just now.. ;]..thanks mann..then we just suddenly mass danced! danced wtih mark and jialiang! so fun! but the best is the "oh my darling" song.. coz we ALL not sure!! haha.. then we just dance ahh then onli the starting and ending we perfect! hahaahaha..

then waited for themmm.. which was not a gd idea coz they left to eat with their family.. wasted time ahha... then went home.. talked to francis at the bus stop, even let one 185 bus pass coz didnt wan to be rude.. was nice talking to him anywayy.. he thinks a lot... hmm.. haha..

oh ya! yes howie, we DO make great cheerleaders! hahaha

and ya.. just realised my previous post got wayyy too many "haha"... but thats how i think.. hhaaha..

shabooya!

ROSE
red red rose,
its beauty is so enticing
yet the pain,
by its thorns,
is just as painful.

ok.. this poem was made by me when i was sec one so its pretty copyrighted (yea right!) haha ok its not even a real poem.. haha...

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i dunno if i shld go sch tmw.. not coz its vdae or wad... but very long and draggy tmw.. nvm la.. just go.. watch malay movie.. I DUN WAN GP!...civics.. bleahh...hist.. wahh.. i might pon hist.. coz i need to go jp.. top up card and .. go toys r us! haha... look for gd waterbottle! haha... go with hu?.. nope... most prob alone... no date! haha.. nvm ah.. just go alone lor.. bleahh

2008-02-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

wahh
ok todae morn was a bore.. 2hrs of hist duhh haha
haha had all the tattos on my hand haha
but afternoon much better!
had a bit of soccer..
taught retard the cheerleading dance! like finally! damn cool mann! haha
then had mass dance.. wahh... damn SHIOK!
mark was fun to dance with! jackie got pple cop (reserve haha) already la wadehell haha
then like there was one dance we really cldnt get it and we were like just stomping there la! haha as in the dance end then we were so ARGHHH hahahahaah
so fun! and we did GEEKS get the GIRLS and its pretty cool coz mark was my dance partner for that song in orientation camp haha..
then evening go teach the hey mama song for a while and my back aches already.. ahha
then just sang sang and cheer on the field... ill really miss the field mann
then went for dinner with retard aka himso, idi-ot and bimso... hahah!
and wad am i?? BLACKCAT!
hahahahahhahaaaaaaahahahahha
yeah, idi-ot go treat us sugar cane drink using four caterpillers haha
yeah, thanks! haha
that was my first sugar cane drink i think... nice ahh.. kinda reminded me of green apple juice.. or something like that.. haha.. but its really nice! sweet haha.. green apple where got sweet...
oh ya, todae is bimso super slow dae! ahaha
yeah.. then walked back tho we cld have just taken the 99 bus in front of us so we cld send retard aka himso off...
then idi-ot was being super lame with his knock knock jokes and sudden boo-ing haha

it was nice mann.. hang out with frens and just talk and eat and walk (i dont mean all at the same time! haha) yeahh.. sec sch i never really did that.. yeah i noob haha... but really la.. i like to hang out with them coz we can sure talk one.. no awkward silence... haha...

ok im tired.. thats why i blog like this today.. haha

oh ya! i just remembered! i go home just now and i saw TWO COCKRAOCHES!! alive some more eh!! not like afraid la but i got a bit jumpy when i saw them.. ewwwwwww (haha so bimbotic ) ya... some times i moody then ill just dont care but at night where u cant see it clearly at first ah.. wahh.. hhahaha

yeah.. im really gonna miss my peeps so i shall announce it now..

ME, HIDAYAH AKA BLACKCAT, IS CONFIRMED GOING FOR OGL CAMP EVEN IF I CANNOT GO FOR O2!!!!!

yeahhh haha... 50 bux fly away... haha.. ok thats all for now! hyper!! haha

i wanna play on the swings...

2008-02-11T18:36:00.000+08:00

my granpa just passed away this morn... yeah, im ok.. i just pray that he will get to a better place, insyaallah, amin

`/`

anyways actually im quite happer and hyper...
hhaha... wait did i just write happer? hahahaha
yeahh... actually todae nothin much happen, except for the ms lim and vp stuff,
so yar.. thats all for now! ;]

oh yar! finally thot of one!

shabooya! shah! shah! shabooya roll call!
my name's hidayah! (yeah!)
and im so sexayyy! (yeah!)
and when i shake it! (yeah!)
the boys go crazayy! (uhuh!)

hahahahahaha

hyper + happy = happer! (gimme one lame clap! hahah)

2008-02-10T15:11:00.000+08:00

tmw school! yayness! haha...
cant wait to play bball! miss it so much... and ya, frm my tone, yall can guess how im gonna be next week! HYPER! why? dunno.. just be happy lor!

happy for bball, happy that i can still spend time with my frens, happy that i have approx SEven daes left with them..

ya.. shld be happy instead of sad! haha

and ya, i jsut realised something interesting frm howie's blog
"so er , after that went out to buy new year stuff.
then while travelling ,
i suddenly , ALL OF THE SUDDEN ,
thought of amirah , hidayah , and idi-ot .
aiya , read my handphone drafts if you guys want to know what i thought.
lazy to say now .
and then , tomorrow's school .
:D
howsun"

haha.. its coz i keep thinking how sun NEVER writes abt me... haha... but for me, im diff frm him, i think abt everyone ALL the time hhahaha.. not ALL OF THE SUDDEN ... haha...

and among the Everyone that i thot abt, i thot of my pltnmates, my sec frens, my other frens... yeah... kinda miss them... haha... ncc, well.. i miss the cadets life.. specialist life was not all that coz i had very limited things to do...haha... just remembered something..

this morning while i was eating prata with my family, this verse frm a song just came to me:
No more CLTs!
No more Shiong PT!

haha... yeah.. onli these two lines tho.. weird huh? haha... but i kinda miss pt.. kena pump also another thing... yeah.. i feel bad coz i never go part outing... :( ... oh wells, hope there'll be a next time! haha...

and yar, my "FAV pics Part II" will be up soon! hahah! ;]

2008-02-09T15:59:00.000+08:00

sighh.. im wasting my life now.. so far ive done nothing but getting the cheerleading moves.. haha! been watching Bleach rock musical: No clouds in the blue sky! damn cool yo!! byakuya looks exactly like byakuya! and ichigo is hottt! haha.. the ichigo looks a bit malay tho.. like his jaw or teeth i dunno, like a malay..*shrugs*.. loves his voice! hahaa sexayy.. hahaa..some renji so funnayy! hehee..aiya..if onli got Grimmjow Jaggerjack! ill just faint! hahaa Grimmjow damn hot waddd... hahaa

ok ok...anw im very annoyed coz i got a lot of nice and funny vids but i just cant upload them coz theyre too big! shesh! so anw im just gonna post here my fav pics so far... haha.. either becoz of its candidness or i really love the angle, lighting blah blah. haha...

frm left: thats me and syafiq, that pic was so candid i love it, the pioneers!, mira so glamm haha, the crescentians!, vivo dae!

nice rite??, this was so candid, lighting loves!, kahsing can be real photogenic mann

i told him to pose one! ;] , this was no photoshop mann, anglee ;]

the dustbin kinda give the pic life.. , howie trying to cry!, this is the reason the balls just get in! ;]

i love this pic coz it like shows movement! , anglee, this was Candid! ;]

err, clouds + sunshine= beauty, ball incoming!!

the red fingernail makes the pic nice, their stunned face damn priceless!, lighting hid my flaws! haha

gad show off her crescent socks!, ceh bahh, ok dont ask me why i made that face.. haha

ok its actually damn tiring and annoying to put up pics coz the internet always die on me... soooo, this is my post on "Fav pics Part I!!!".. haha... ok thats all for now! ;]

2008-02-07T19:25:00.000+08:00

this is dedicated to my granpa ...

todae my family and i visited my very sick grandpa... he looked so scary.. extremely thin, seriously skin and bones...he seemed so breathless... i had no idea wad to do, really... i, from a long time ago, cannot understand anything that he says.. he speaks malay.. but the way he says it and all, well..i cant catch nor understand them... but there was a very clear thing that he said...

it was the syahadah...

no, he has not passed away yet but yea.. my parents kept encouraging him to zikir...my mom was crying.. i wasnt.. but in my mind i kept thinking abt this... well, when i was much younger (i cant even rmbr i made the promise), i promised my granpa ill look after him.. until now i haven really looked after him... i was/am his a-chong... why "a-chong" you ask? funny really... as a toddler i couldnt pronounce some words... air kosong (plain water) became a-chong and thus the nickname..

its funny.. but its also sad.... coz my granpa can remember me and my sisters onli as young children... we used to visit him Very often when we were young, almost every week, but we grew up and visited him less.... sorry atok...now, i just pray that he can leave peacefully and go to heaven , insyaallah...

~/~

well, now... wad to do? ive got three free daes... ok let me list down the things i need or want to do!

-malay hmk
-practice doing gp paragraphs/essay
-wash shoes!(impt!)
-make dance steps for last 40 secs of hey mama (bleahh)
-watch BIO:AON over and over to get the cheerleading steps right (to show off to how sun! haha)
-make my own shabooya! hahaaa
-upload vivo pics (so late! sry!)

i yhink that shld be it! hahaa... yea some are lame but i have to waste quite a lot of time you know...unless i shld be doing research or something... ok maybe i shld..haha..and ya... the vivo pis! need to pload vids too! haha...

ok thats all for now! ;]

2008-02-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

yeah...im sorry i made everyone so worried by not calling and all... yes it was selfish of me.. im very sorry..

ok yeah... let me talk abt ytd... from the start...

i was extremely down.. i can say "extremely" coz it really was the extreme.. i was down for no real solid or understandable reason... thats why i find it extreme.. played bball after watching some guys playing (damn rough) but still felt down.....

was suddenly alone coz arthur and sharon left for canteen... then mira and how sun came and left... they tried to cheer me up (i think) but i think i passed to them my emo-ness... same thing with mel...got a call frm idiot and just talked lor... felt a lot better after that and i reminded myself to push away that emo-ness and instead accept hyper-ness.. haha crapp... but yeah, after that play bball again with arthur... then for malay lesson i just hung out talking to amirah... one nicepart was when we bothletgo of our hair at the fitness corner there and slept.... ok not really haha.. then we both sang and sang.. she keep singing off tune! hahaa..

then family meeting well... ok lor.. my leroy ( i think) kept shouting and made us really down... but mass dance was fun! howie was my partner....

yeah... at nite was when it began...i realised part of the reason why i was down was coz i kept missing chances to go out with my frens just to hang out... it was damn selfish of me to just go but i know i wld regret it if i didnt go... it was fun too! CARS! "wait, let me think!" hahaa,... "becoz i squash bananas!" hahaaa.. yeah..i can imagine... ill be in a worst mood than that morn if i didnt go... haha...

so anw todae was bleahhhhh except for the mass dance and leaders dance! hahaa.. danced with hu? Jackie! coz how sun go awayyyy.... then dance dance!.... then after that bring table then i waited for gad and syira... they almost left me la.. they owe me bubble tea.. hahaa.. then in the end didnt go crescent... so i went home, walked sooooo slowly, slept all the way to 630 pm.....

man.. fours daes of no sch is gonna be torturous....

oh ya... while waiting for gad.... it was so cold...

just so cold...

2008-02-03T12:25:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was hell of a dae seyyy... not sure if i mean it in a gd way..

so anw...went to sch by 8... was down a bit ah.. like i was really tired and hungry... then thanks family mates... got some ask me if i alright... hazlin la... she a bit afraid i think coz i not in my usual crazy mode... haha.. then juanita, shaoyan (sp?) and yao an massage my back... for once seyy, got pple strong enuf doing my back.. coz usually too soft la.. haha..

then actually got fever la, but i sweated it out after the games all that.. haha.. shaoyan's way of checking my temp very funny! she put her own forehead on mine! hahaa...

wet games was ok... yesterdae was f2's turn to be high! hahaaa... i love the new remix of cheers that f2 made! haha..

then no scdc.. sadd... need to practice ma... then f2 we all started our family dance practice while we're still wet! haha.. all the water drip drip... coz later if change then sweat again ma.. wahh.. in the end jackie and me continued making the dance till we brain dead... i was so hungry after that.... then jackie got worried for everyones stomach so we had a break... from 220 tp 3 plus to get food.. ta pao or just eat there... the guys just stayed there... mark and huixing so tired they just slept... then me and some pple went macs and the food court there... then when i got inside the macs ah, i go in like so cool like that! hahaa..

then went back.. i got a lot closer to shakina and hazlin, it was pretty easy to talk to them... then went back, ate my SPICY hot nasi goreng kampung.. haha... yaoan, jialiang, jackie all ate some too... juanita, hazlin also wanted to try it... haha... then i didnt realise it but i actually Fed jackie... hahaa so funny... then go into lt2 to talk abt imp stuff, then kena chased out.. hahaa... then danced danced again...

oh ya! gimme one Jackie clap!
(clap!) uh uh uh, gongxi gong xi gongxi ni ah!

haha.. made a lot of other claps la! but jackie coz he was wearing red underwear! hahaaa... i got a clap too! francis made one la..

gimme one hidayah clap!
(clap!) im a girlish girlish girl!

hahaaa.. btw francis is my sister and im his brother! hahaa...

yeah.. in the end i didnt realise it, but we all spent like 12 hrs in sch on a sat lei.. like as if its a nomal sch dae.. yeah .. went home with yao an after that..

im feeling very guilty that i didnt go for our part outing la... but really, i need todae to recuperate hehee...

and ya, lastly, my previous post is not my usual me.. thats my extremely till i cant think too much details me.. haha... thats y i blog abt sat onli todae... less tired... ;]

ok then... laterr

2008-02-01T22:24:00.000+08:00

i am tired.

i am very tired.

but im still here...

haha...

whole body aching... stretch but not much diff

ok todae...

almost pon lit, but still learnt quite a bit..

gp test, crapped thru,

lit again
shld have pon that coz right after it rained and all the way till 330 cannot

(ok mom just got in and scold me..
must rest..)

play bball... damn sad sia...

but there was a funny scene today..

me- sits down drinking hl milk and listening to ipod
aaron- walks to his seat (oppo me)
me- takes out one earpiece to show that im giving him attention
aaron- said "why do girls look so hot when they're wet?"
me- choke, spluttered, eyes widen and went "wad??"

haha..

then boredom coz everyone left

then family 2... ok la.. a bit boring..
had the dance on stage
screwed up a bit but still in ok mood
help carry stuff
go talk to F2...
then made up a dance committee (with hopes that others wld contribute more instead of just me and jackie)
in the end also onli we two make dance
but they can learn first then teach others like dat i guess
took some time just to decide song and best part:
bonding among the small grp of us

its was nothing big but it felt significant to me..
F2! we can do it!

then now dancing to hey mama..
a lot harder than the other song but alright ah...

then shabooya! haha...

ok im very tired...

im gonna sleep liaoz... nitez!

2008-01-31T21:43:00.000+08:00

wow... i have reverted back to my old blogskin.. this is more me btw... black and simple... shall add in link and stuff laterr...

anw todae, lyk any other dae in jjc, was great! haha... ok lets start frm the morn...

go sch, saw many jjc snrs so i thot ill be lucky and get to sch alright... met me aunt and uncle .. they gave me 5 bux.. hehe...then some more i saw hendy in the same bus .. i gave a sigh of relief.. coz thot timing ok..... then reach wah... so late... then me and hendy decided to just wait till 8 plus so we wont get booekd or wad (which didnt work)..but then we just talked and walked... went in, ate macs.. haha nola.... i had to IMAGINE that my salty fried rice was something frm macs.... haha... then pon malay coz seriously thot my malay teacher not there... blah blah...

then afternn played soccer then play bball! fun sia....

then family time... at first it truely sucked...had headache some more...i tried my VERY best to self motivate well..myself... and hopefully the peeps arnd me...but at one pt i was almost abt to cry... like i was so sad that we not making dance plus F2 was so disunited abt this... but in the end we made a dance .. wah.... like really friggin' easy dance la.. but we did it within 2+ hrs! yeah!! haha.. me and jackie choreographed and taught our family...at first i didnt like partnering jackie coz he a bit too hyper at wrong time... but then he got a little more serious after that and we had great fun! yeah... then we had to move to the field to dance.. ok just the track la... once we finished it, wah i was so happy mann... the dance was repetitive and not very the great but we did it! we ALL did it! wah.. so like tired yet so happy after that... like a sense of acheivement... haha....

then right, rite after i dismissed (i dismissed them!) i ran to amirah and just fell to the netball floor.. tired sia... then me, mira, howsun and hendy we ran to the mid of the field and just lie down.. and yeah, we did cheers there!! haha.... that was funny! then ran back ... then went home... nice... ok im tired and i wanna sleep.. my whole body aches la...

i need to ego boost myself with a shabooya!hahaa

2008-01-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

ok... as you can see, ive changed me blogskin.. felt that it was a lil too small...actually this is close to my old skin but dunno wads wrong with the other things like tagboard.. shall do somthing abt soon..

anw.. ive got hell of a lot of things to talk abt... feel like writing all abt it mann... haha... ok i need to talk abt mon, tues and today! actually today and tues nothing much la but mon wow! ok i shall crapabout mon!

Monday:
wakes up at 1015... got ready.. 1215 mira call to say change frm 1pm sharp to 230 pm.. i was damn pissed but heck... 1220 to 215 had nothing to do watch puteri gunung ledang (why??? hahaaa).. got out of hse at 225 still earliest there... got there wait, wait wait, go popular, go long johns(eat combo one! and extra fries!) then FINALLY how sun finsh is family meeting.. syira had to leave tho.. sadd... made our way to chevrons.. tricked howie by saying that aishah also left! so easy la.. she hid behind me and suhaila... hahaa.. played bowling onli by 6pm (why og8? why you nvr go bowling? then can bowl tgt!) damn shiok seyy.. except that i keep getting drain la... haha.. must FOLLOW THRU.. haha... then played this pic game wadeva it was... then go arcade! shld have taken video of howie para para la! had the whole arcade to ourselves la.. hahaa... then cam whored a lot there then go jp... aishah and su went home.. and ya...GAMISHOWHISU! if you clever you'll understand.. hahaa.. then met megah.. eat at banquet blah blah... then go home....

actually got A LOT OF DETAILS i wan to add and i planned wad i wan to say already.. but i lazy now.. haha...

anw a bit sad that i cldnt get to my og.. i dress up (ok not really) for mon lor! got make up some more..(like wadehell) hahaaa... yea..mel kept asking if i was gonna do "The works"...haha.... but i really had fun there mann.. how sun+ gad+ mira+aishah+su.... and me... damn fun! ok no need details.. we got pics and videos for tt... haha...

Tues:
actually nothing much... except that it was a bit wasted that it rained after aaron n me (and others including his fren edwin) play soccer for onli 30 min? yeah... then i was really supposed to go home when i saw the malay peeps and then talked abt mcs... the me and muhammad (he brought his transformer car bumblebee lei... ) ran to play soccer coz no more rain.. then cannot find aaron then we play bball.. kept calling me "violent " la! he "loser" la... really! he throw and all try to be fancy but in the end not in... as in haiyooo.. then we go like"wadehell you doing" then he goes "looks cool ma.. like if you catch then score like damn nice wad.." crazy... hahaa.. then the end was the best ... after many pathetic times he said, "ok now i show my true colours!" BAM! haha.. he accidently knocked into gail... hahaha.. i really laugh and fell to the floor when that happened la! like his true colours like that... hahaaa.. and ya... i owe him 70c.. hehee

Today!:
actually i was angry today coz i really didnt wan to go for gp... then i dunno why but suddenly in the afternoon i felt so down... emo a bit... but after that scdc brought my spirits high again! yeah.. danced with howie... then ice breaker.. haha let me list down as many names as i can rmb..
cristie,shu yi, amanda, shitong(dunno how to spell), jamie, suyi, shiva, damian(dunno how to sp),hendy, sheena, hui fang, me, hafiza, sijia, wendy, how sun..... wa.. i quite pro hor? hahaa.. then went arnd doing nothing for a while then went to hall... play badminton a bit.. but wad made me happy was the dancing part with kahsing! he did his moves and i did mine.. as in i love dance... on stage some more lei.. love the stage... then went down and up gain.. played badminton again.. how sun damn comical sia... funny seyy! i like stunned there while he did his acrobats.. haha.. then wah.. hendy damn pro sia,, made everyone run abt hahaa.. then after all that, like 730 already.. went down waited for gad talking by running one round arnd field so dark... actually not very dark.. some more quite cool so its nice sia... then did a lot of shabooya! hahaa... funn.. then went home.... bus damn packed plus i was smelly and sweaty after all that... haha..

but really ah.. exercise like dancing and sports really make feel good... like im extremely tired but im damn happy.. quote frm hendy "wonderfully tired".. that quote can also be found in Enemy of the People by arthur miller.. lit la... haha... yea.. in fact shld slep now... oh yea damn i haven upload pics.. nvm... can do them on weekend or sooner...

thats all for today.. thank you and have a goo- Great day!

this is really hidayah's crapabout .. hhaha

2008-01-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

these few days has been rather uneventful... wans bball but never play....

have been staying up late recently.. why? dunno.. read pples blogs... read my own blog.. as in the archives la... funny. used to really talk A LOT seyy.. like blogging was my crapabout time... wrote poems and stuff... funny seyy..

now my blog like pretty dead.. oh wells..

tmw there's og outing... tmw there's also like bowling with howie,gad and mira.. and some others... so im gonna hang out wif them first then ill go to my og... may not be able to spend time going out after this ma..im really gonna miss how sun, shafiq, mellissa, aaron, .. as of course there are others la,... a lot actually but jus to name a few...my og...

anw jj is like my 3rd choice..at first it was fourth then i moved it higher then anderson jc... ac,sa then jj... i wan ac la.. but a lot wan to go there.. damn...

anw i gave up on a photoblog and instead, i got myself photobucket.. a lot faster... i uploaded a lot on one night... like i had to waste my time waiting by watching a lot of bleach la... ill put a link at the side.. i still think imagestation is more user friendly tho...

alrights.. will blog abt tmw well.. tmw... byez!

oh yea.. my granpa... i hope he gets better... :/

2008-01-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

emotionless...
i guess that really is how I'm feeling now... Idunno la... like before getting results, I didn'tfeel anything... ok a little nervous Ia.. if 1 didn't feel that way then I'm not human... But I tell you ah...I was so proud of jia yi, Wang Jin, Shermain, Sue Wei and a lot more la...and our cohort did better than last yr... cool...but our juniors damn poor thing...haha...

but really... I received the results also like nothing... but it was nice la when I received calls and smses from pple... Melissa called me Ia.. haha... Then I got very happy... coz I called Aaron like this...

Ring ring!
Aaron: Hello?
Me: Yippa Anderneh!
aaron and me: apple apple, orang harlega!

then we continued and he was damn happy la... I got happy too coz got someone to do Yippa with me. .. like me, gad, mira, abigail have been cheering but cannot yip-pa... hahaa...

actually I dunno... after reading something... my emotionless peace have been disturbed... sometimes like I feel I'm Rukia from Bleach... like she was in peace coz she had already resignedherself to her fate then Ichimaru disturbed her by doing something I "forgot"... yea... like that lor... Idunno la... I don't have that painful feeling in my heart any more but half of me wants to run, half of me wants to lie on the floor to rot. Half of me wants toscream and cry. Halfof me wants to smile and laugh... I'm a creature of opposites... a cat...but I'm gonna take everything in my stride... (is that correct?)stand up tall and to whatever bad events or Wadeva, just go "Fuck it, I don 't give a damn." and move on.Actually I write all this like I'm in a frustrated mood or something... but honestly... I can 't feel a thing...

hahaa... ok anyway I love Malay lesson today! Taboo! haha... and ya. I'll miss winking at How Sun... sigh... haha...

2008-01-19T18:23:00.000+08:00

ok... im left with a week... ok not like im dying or anything.. a week to results...
im being emo mann... i feel sad la.. like og8 is the best and i feel so at home in jjc... ogls and snrs, yall did a good job at that... i feel scared.. scared to go.. im afraid i wld regret it if i go somewhere else.. ok its not like im damn sure im getting like 7 pts or wad but.... sighh..

anyway.. some how the song "given up", its chorus, is really in my mind now...

ive GIVEN UP!!
Im SICK of feeling!
is there NOTHIING you can say?
take this ALL AWAY
im suffocating
tell me wad the fuck is WRONG, with ME!!

yeah.. ayam.. ok nvm

ill post more laterr

2008-01-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

wow... im happy... ok im angry, sad abt stuff ill talk abt laterr... BUT IM HAPPY! REALLY!

haha... ok its coz of the og8 vivo outing! didnt have time to blog abt it before but i tell you ah... im still happy abt it... very fun! made a lot of lame but fun videos! our cheers la... at food republic la... ks and hendy dance la... haha...

i try upload some pics here...

ok nvmm... so anyway i had so much fun!! then me, wanjia, eudora, jengyang and aaron went back home...had to borrow 90 cents from them la... i was TOTALLY broke... then ride home we watched the videos....

haha... i just noticed it just now when i was watching it.. the video hendy took of us playing with the water ah.. you know wad he was doing? he was humming wad song and then at the end he said " this.. is OG8..out vivo outing.. goodbye..." WAHLAU damn emo la... haha....

oh yeah.. then during the eating time... i asked around la.. the guys coz they were the ones around me... i try to think think wad they say... i think this is wad they said

aaron : you really wan to know ah?.. i thot you were like Bossy etc... but after talking to you more then i know la...

ks: hyper (i think)

then i cant remember much... coz like it was on thurs and today sat... but yeah, they told me stuff i expected... like cool ah.. we can talk like that.. aaron, i thought he wouldnt be the type that will talk..... bleahhh

okok.. i gtg... ill write more laterr

2008-01-06T16:33:00.000+08:00

YIPPA ANDENEH!!

hahahaa...

ok, as you can guess, im back from orientation camp. its was so FUN!! i am SUPER glad im in og8 la.. and im not saying its because amirah is there (ok partly) but also coz my group is like so supporting sia... like we really make ourselves have fun la... okok... let me tell you abt it from the starting.. im gonna just briefly talk abt the first day..

first day, i was like walking towards jj.. i was like so scared la... somemore im supposed to wait for a while for gad and syira... the right outside the gate the ogls go shout "GOOD MORNING!!!!" i was like shocked sia... and honestly, i got even more afraid...

fast forward to first camp day...

was it first camp day or first day that we got our first mass dance? but anyway my first dance partner was Maverick.. forgot his sch.. he quite kaku ah.. but still so fun coz he smile and stuff and try to dance... hahaha...then Raymond was jut across so i keep like lookinga t him and making faces at hiim.. haha... so then we had wet activities... water bomb and stuff la.... we got so high la!! my grp... Siti (my ogl) told me to try and lead cheer and like initiate one ... like try not to let the ogls start it... then i did some times la... very fun seyy!! like at first i didnt like the YIPPA ANDENEH cheer coz like too much jumping and stuff plus the lyrics ah... hahaha.. but then it got so fun doing it that it became our fav cheer! hahaha.... some mor ah, like by the firs day, we were playing our own games together and geting to know each other... like wow mann..

but then i keep getting confused of some pple... as in their names and stuff.. coz got some go back home early, or some com from another grp....... i know Hendy, gail and Eudora came from another grp, coz their grp too big...... then at niht got night games..at first ah, like i thought like we run a bit can la.. then at the end ah, i like sweating so much mann..

oh yeah, before that got the song singing thing... great la at first.. was like dancing like crazy.. but then at the end like very awkward...i felt like that teacher giving us the reverse psycology thingy.....

then the next morning... like i cried la.... coz i was in such a dillemma... dilemma of emotions... in one hand i felt sorry, on the ther end i felt pissed ... like to the ogls la.. coz my priority is to get a place (ANYWHERE) to pray and i felt like it was getting so hard for me to get a space, but then i also felt sad and sorry for the ogls coz i know they work so hard and even tho i dun see it, they doing a lot of work.. i saw la, some guy ogl on the music mixer thing already nodding away... wahh..... but at the end Siti sent me to a place for me to prayla.. then she also nodding away while i was praying.. thanks siti! for following me there even tho you were tired...

then got more games and mass dance... next i was with Jeng Yang and then Mark... then the water games ah..it was with grp BETA la so me and gad were like looking out for gadis with a water bomb in our hands... haah.. but in the end didnt find her so we throw them away.. then finaally ahhhhhhh..... our grp was against gad's! so when we got there we were like "HEY GADIS!!! YOO!!! " slaps butt jumps around and etc! hahahah... really funy la.. the ogls and games master all looking at us... haha.... then the games master say "i wanted yall to lead a cheer but i see two very enthu people just over here!!" then he asked me and amirah to lead a cheer on the chair.. then we lead ah! like i cant remember wad cheers we did but he asked us o do like 4 more! but we got to the the YIPPAANDENEH!! hahaaahaa..... so funnn

good things always have to end.... it felt so surreal... like making so many friends and like they seem so close... having so much fun.....

so anyway... end of the day, we went out.. onli a few of us went out to eat with yonghong and snr suan woo.... eat eat... found out that there's a kopitiam at jec... haha.. like i really never knew mann... then went home with hendy.. he helped me carry my bag (thanks Hendy!) .. it was like super heavy la! to me it was... sommore my back was really aching.. i think i may have back problems... thn talk talk... in the end i jsut stopped talking la... hendy got so tired he slept in the bus... he lives near amirah one.. it was a nice ride home.. except for the part where he pass to me back my bag... hahahhaha.. coz it was heavy plus the rain ah... wah...

but i was happy to be back..coco grew!! then i found that mama bought me a long big scissors for cloth and a pin cushion! ahaha.. so nice... it was nice sleeping for so long too! with coco at my side and pouncing at my arm (coz of the rafia string) at night.. haha... okla... i gtg now... kak nur wants her com back... shesh!!

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2007-12-30T20:18:00.000+08:00

finally got this on... the internet is freaking unreliable...

so anyway, i wasnt actually planning to blog today but yeah... just had to say something coz i might as well since im having my sis com now.. i think my com can go to the scrap metal place...

right after crezawards... i never wanted to listen to the song Lacrymosa, Evanescence ever again.... i felt embarrassed each time i heard it... so if i accidently heard it or wad, it will be just the starting and then ill change... that soon goes for all the other evanescence songs... like i know i totally ruined them in that show... like duhh... wad was i thinking??

so anyway, just just now... as in a few minutes ago... i just listened to Lacrymosa with my sis sony ericsson earpiece (yeah, the one that totally blocks out other sounds).... and then i realised why i sang that song in the first place. i LOVED it! in fact, i still do... the background music, the powerful voice, everything!.. yeah... now Snow White Queen is playing... wow...

~*~

well, now im left with two days to school... who else in JJC?? GRP 8? house colour Blue? Family no 2? haha.. ok la... im gonna see if 153 finished loading already... bleach by the way... can you imagine? 2 weeks of no internet for my com so far? heart pain mannn....

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2007-12-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

ok... my com is totally screwed.. i cant type on it and the internet is gone... i have no idea why.. thats why i am no longer bothering to switch it on... BUT... i can rejoice coz i have a SEWING MACHINE... i can tell you... it feels so surreal... like i didnt believe that my mom would get me it even until my parents went out to buy it... the sewing design thingy.. the many types thingy.. i forgot what its called... well, its pretty basic... in fact its VERy basic actually... but im alright... in fact im very happy with it! i can really sew with it!...... well,.. i havent done any major projects with it coz my denim fabrics are all in gad's house... so yeah im using scraps of fabric to practice sewing...

speaking of surreal, having coco is yet another surreal thingy... really... each time i pet coco, its like in a dream.. like ill laugh and smile whenever i see coco.. well... right now... its like 90% confirmed that coco will go once this month end... that means... i onli have 5 days from now... im much more sad than how i sound now... but ive done enough (ok maybe not enough) crying for now... coco is beside me now! hha... ive decided to be brave.. haha... as in i should be thankful instead... thank god for the month.. sighh.. really...

ok then... i most probably wont be blogging for another month so yeah.. see ya laterrrrr

this is coco.. hehe..

this is her about-to-pounce look! <3

2007-11-22T16:07:00.000+08:00

it still sucks that my keyboard is not working.. my mom just asked for my laptop's model so i can change the keyboard..

anywayyyy... great news! i have a kitten! hopefully my mom willchange her mind and let it stay for more than a month...

ok, how i got it? - heard a kitten meowing very loudly from 2am( made me dream a bad dream)
- 7am woken up by sis, decided to rescue it
-went down, after some time decided to go pioneer sec to get thekitten's family ...
-got the kitten out from the construction site coz it responded and came towards the kitten i was holding
-brought to pss then back home
-2 hrs later mom came back and made me throw them "either me or the cats"
-next day, morning, found out my dad brought one of them in coz it rained the night before and it looked cold
-tried looking for the other one but it was gone

so now i have one kitten... the one i saved is most probably still out there... but hopefully somebody took it in and is being nice to it... ill upload pics next time...

now... its pretty boring.. i dun have the Ladies apparel design making class to look forward to.. sadd.. oh wells...

2007-10-15T12:32:00.000+08:00

its hari raya already.. and i have onli 3 days from now to the start of o levels... sucks la.. but then, after 23 days from now, it will be all over!

anyway, yesterday was fun.. wanted to study and do work but just when i started, gad called to persuade me to come to her house.. can t say it was for visiting like the hari raya type ocz onli four pple came and two of shich was not even malay, dlite and randee.. so yeah, didnt wear baju kurung or anything... but still it was quite fun

we ate, played game of life and twister.. and the twister board fortune too! but i was so annoyed at the same time.. my mom gave me two hours there (excluding travel time) but after onli 30 mins, she called to ask me go get back home at that time... because they were going to my relatives' houses.. i wasnt too keen.. well i was angry la... then my mom said "fine, two hours.. 5 oclock get back home" i was like "fine, ill get out by 5" then she said no need coz she'll pick me up.... so we played played played... didnt get to use the sewing machine (the thing that gad persuaded me with) but yeah,....

so by 515 i got ready and went down... my mom didnt call me yet and didnt pick up her phone when i called her so we just played at the playground la... fun fun! then me and gad were chasing one another coz we took each other's stuff.. some chinese boy was laughing so much la.. so maluating... haha... when i finally got to call my mom, she said "sorry.. no im not picking you up. they came here instead" my relatives unexpectedly came to my house instaead la.. so yeah had to go... forgot my sis ipod so had to go back...

sighh... cant say i wasted the day... well yeah maybe.... so today, im gonna studystudystudy.... im half way thru my 2004 june amths p1... so yeah. i gtg finsh it up!

2007-09-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

oh yes.. i didnt talk abt my trip to pioneer pri did i?

quite interesting actually... i onli reason i actually went there was that i haven seen assy for like THREE years! haah... but really yeah.. and he got no more JAmbul! haha.. funny la.. but sad coz amirah wasnt there (that idiot) .. didnt do much... met cikgu rafisah .... so fun.. talked a lot with me.. shes rubgy's aunt la... haha... dint know that.. anyway yeah. then like quite fun la.. just walked around.. met desmond... haha... met shadiq and assy.. the memories just rushed into me.. well actually not la... more so last yr when we went to pioneer for the last time.. but i love pri sch days... life was so simple..

great memories... hmm wad do i remember abt assy?
i know he was once so much shorter than me that id squat while talking to him to mock him.. i remember that im the onli person taht he will respond to if i call him
A-sya-raf... his name is Assyaraf...usually pple call him Ash-raf that way... haha.. we did hat experiment actually... like amirah tried calling him that way and he didnt respond the i did and he turned.. haha.. OH YES! i remember ! he is VERY afraid of my lastik.. like the rubber band thing... hell.. hhahahhahah... and YES! i forgot this but cikgu rafisah reminded me ... p5 i think.. we had to this stupid malay presentation and im supposedly arried to assy.. HAHAHA.. life before was so entertaining..

lets see.. lets try to tap into one more of my memory files in my brain..

lets to remember... ok.. lets try to remember memories for the next guy who was there...
shadiq!

hmm... funny memories from him. waht do i remember? OH YES! haha... he ALWAYS tried to pair me up with assy. which was very stupid... haha... hmm. HE is afraid of spiders!! ok maybe he Was and no longer now but yeah! i remember it very well..... i just caught a spider and wanted to scare amirah but she was already gone.. so Kuan Loong came to see the spider... Stupid shadiq purposely pushed him to amke him "fall" to me or wadeve.. i was so angry that i really wanted to throw something. onli had the spider so i threw taht to him.. he Screamed! ok maybe not girl scream but like squeled... or wadeva... HHHAAHA.. yeah.. right after taht i was laughing so much........ wad else do i remember? i remember once i wanted so much to slap him coz he was teasing me wayy too much that i said "if you say another word, im gonna slap you!" guess wad the idiot did.. (confuse look -for one second- then) "boo!" hell i should have slapped him. almost did.... haha... he's always pairing me up with shafiq too... hhaa..

sighh... bt then after that we just left... shadiq and assy went to visit the other teachers adn me and gad just when to see the heroes.... lost each other and i just stood at the second floor.. was hoping i could see her (couldnt) or to make myself more prominent.... crescent niform also wad. hha...

ok la. enough... gtg liao... hhaa

bye!

2007-09-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

yeah.. long time never write in.. busy, lazy, com keyboard sploit, you know...

anyway.. how time passes... the last post was like wad.. even before the prelims.. yes, prelims is now over and im left with onli 22 days to my Os.. i feel stupid... not just because i already am but also because.. no matter how much i try to psyche myself to do work nd like you know... pep talk myself.. it never really happens.. sucks...

i ddint come to school today.. cant help it.. was sick la.. yesterday was even worst.. sneezing all the way.. haha... i stood at the door (after being in the toilet and the outside to try sneeze off my flu) and just said "mrs gek, may i Please go home" but then ya la.. i was disturbing others.. history test la.. hha sneezing all the way. pretty gross too... come to think of it.. it may actually be serious you know... heyy, you never know... usually i have like flu for abt half day or max one day.. because of flu or wadeva la.. but then now its like my third day.. sekali i actually having denggi.. shesh. bad mouth...

today i got my prelim results.. well not really.. sweet suewei helped me check my papers.. well.. cant say for now.. im not too sure wad i got and all coz got the moderation and stuff... but yeah... shld be alright.. ok lets see..

i got a2 for lit, a2 for malay, i think b3 for english.. so like wad .i already got 7 pts... and guess wad.. my sisters want me to go njc. ... ya lor! crazy pple.... like this

"wad for i go sch today? today got like wad schools coming : NJ, ACI(ib),SAJC, (and wadever)! how to get there! im just gonna pon sch la.."

"why not? go nj la.." --farah

"crazy ah? 6 pts lei"--me

"can wad.. you can make it one" (something like that) -- nur

"ya'll know wad i got for midyrs? 29 pts lei..."

both my sisters looked at each other.

"i got 26 lei. just 3 pts... can one.. kak nur got 12, i got 10.. you can get within that range too..."

ok.. like.. hell... i dun wan the pressure on me if i ever get to nj so yeah.. nj is OUT of my list.. im looking forward to acjc tho.. not bad wad. got the drama eletive i hope to go.. coz they will teach how to make costumes.. yes, costumes... its close to making clothes and stuff...

but helll.... im not confident at all...

im scared actually.. like you wont get a second chance after this.. if i dun get to jc im screwed... as in if i dun qualify la.. if i get great pts but i go poly can la.. but i NEED to get qualified to go jc...i know that my family got like you know... like my other relatives look up to my family.. like all the geniuses like taht... ok not that bad but yeah... we all got it from Both my parents la.. my dad a genius and my mom is rationally bright....

haha.. im writing so much... trying to make up for the long time i never post...

actually i never post coz im Supposed to write in my diary.. haha... you know.. the old time thing... i actually prefer taht actually.. like i was reading my old diaries and like it so fun! yeah..

OHYA!!

nobody gimme denim.. my tactic didnt work.. damn! oh wells..

and yea... how time flies.. its already half-way thru the fasting month... my Os starting (prac first) 5 days after Syawal..................

okla.. i know i have a lot of stuff to talk abt.. but its all in my head and i cant type that much... yes, call me lazy... haha... see you soon , i hope..

dayahhh

2007-08-11T12:59:00.001+08:00

btw... i got A1 for my recent amaths test!! hehehehehehehe

2007-08-11T12:26:00.000+08:00

gosh.. prelims coming very soon. sucks la... i haven done a thing of bio and ss... lit not so much either.. well, having nd holiday now.. four long days... actually not that long... wednesday afternoon i just did emaths... thursday, onli did emaths and went out with family.. sucks la.. friday didnt do much either.. emaths again.. sucks la.. i got too much emaths that thats the only thing that im doing... now im gonna stop doign emaths (i did all the emaths paper one and some paper two) and finsih with my chem paper... the two qns thing.. ive started it la.. yesterday night... didnt do much yesterday either coz had belajar... sighh..

ok... things to do today.
- chem two qns
- ss sec 3 notes
- ss sec 4 notes
- read bio book

i keep getting distracted by the tv... my fault for studying infront of it. but then if i dun get distracted by it, ill want to go to sleep.. then ill sleep and instead of waking up, ill sleep through and waste more time... actually im wasting time now...

and yea.. im getting my malay os grades on monday... didnt tell any of my family that it will be on monday... so they wont ask blah blah... im just gonna surprise them.. hopefully it will be a pleasant surprise... shucks.. ok.. im gonna do my chem NOW...

ok.. ms procrastinator signing out.....

ps: ndp concert was weird.. house cheering was a waste of time and the scholars were standing up too... i think that was the disturbing thing... hmmm

2007-08-02T17:51:00.000+08:00

yeah.. prelims are coming soon.. 19 days... it seemed like yesterday that the signs all bore the number 58.. as in goshhh.... i am totally not ready la.. its a bit stupid now... as in im blogging and wasting my time instead of studying... well, yeah, im gonna take a nap later and thennn im gonna study.. miss procrastinator... i dunno la... cant help it... i havent touched my sciences books... my ss.. and not exactly lit... ok today, i have two papers to complete and my sci chem to finish... sighh... im so lazy... and this is damn bad... hidayah you got to pull yourself together!! arghh... ok then nvm... im so tired... im gonna go sleep..

2007-07-17T21:09:00.000+08:00

yesterday was nice... so funny.. before the malay paper, i was supposed to be studying or using my time productively.. well, i did quite the opposite... but i dun regret it... it was 3 hrs well spend for retardations.. haha.... at first we tried to sleep... gadis did but i couldnt... noisy ah...then we moved to the side (not mpr) and we were playing "heart attack!" haha... at first only me, gad and insyirah... the yasmin came... hahahahaahha... yasmin, yasmin... she damn funny to play with la... th amelia also join haha... fun man.. the amelia hit gad and yasmins hand even when it was aleady off the spot... haha.... she too gabra... then we moved to the back... coz yasmin and amelia tired liao..so we were supposed to use the mats (gymnastics) to sleep on... a bit the better than the floor right?... but we ended up playing wadehell i dunno.. we were like throwing two bean bags at each other and we haf to catch it from a far distance... to let time pass, even that can amuse us.. haha... then me and syira attack gad by throwing only to her and picking up the shuttlecocks to hit her.. which didnt exactly work coz it wont hit her hard no matter how we try to throw very hard.. haha... then got tired and just lay on the mats talking, playing heart attack yet again and looking at the various pictures in gad's phone... haha... very fun... actually perspoired from playing that much haha...yeah.. and i was supposed to study history and stuff.. wadevaaaa... hahah

then the malay paper was okay la... only 2 i cannot confirm... the rest i totally confirm that i get right... but cannot think that way right? just pray now ah?... i really need the a1... anyway that fiza o cannot read the news for nuts.. oh wells, just listen to her and laugh la... and the music omg... fine la.. pple with tension will be less tension but pple with no tension will just sleep la dei... haha....

so today... a totally bnoring day... im missing malay lessons already.. yea... i like malay lessons.. so interesting compared to the others... but then history is getting more interesting.. partly coz i did work on it... so i understand better... and hema is teaching, not aw... which makes it even better... well, ss too... claudia ting n0ot that bad... she a bit annoying at first but at least she did that.. as in like ms ho.. well, if i become a teacher next time, ill be like them.. hopefully.... well, now im doing my history... i good girl okay... ahaha... ok nights!

why cant pple just stop smoking?

dayahh

2007-07-10T18:16:00.000+08:00

yes yes i know i havent been blogging at all... not like as if anybody reads here.. but i guess i should just write a bit of my life even for a bit.. coz one day ill get back to this blog for my own pleasure..

well, sunday was ncc day.. honestly im more of relieved that it is over... mostly coz it has been veyr taxing... 12 hrs is no joke man... yea... then none of my family members came tho my sis said she wanted to... last minute... the night before the real day was stupid... late at night and i was not even ready... then the next day i was sooo sleepy... but hd a lot of time to rest.. expected it to be raining but i didnt after some lighting and thunder.. hmmph.. yea... then after ome time, it was over... the only thing i could think of after that was for me to get back home, try doing some hmk and sleep... well, the next i was still damn tired... i think it was a bit foolish to put it on a sunday.. as in even if nc day really is on a sunday.. well.. it over..

for the next two days i was a bit feverish and very sleepy in class... mostly in english.. well, eng is boring in the first place.. oh yeah.. i was so damn glad that on monday, mdm azlin didnt come to class.. i tell you ah.. i slept for two whole periods mann... yeahh

so today... hmm.. my birthday.. haha...
thanks everyone for your presents! so niceee... and thanks to all that wished me happy birthday.. thanks shermainnnn.. thanks debbieee... thanks nabbb.. hahaha... sue wei alsooo.. haha.. very happy... oh yeah.. but today i slept in english class... you shld see my handwriting.. sue wei was laughing so much at it... haha... yeahh.. oh yeah.. happy birthday amirah! okla.. thats all for my update todayy....

dayahh

2007-04-30T17:32:00.000+08:00

i tell you ah..this is so annoying..i have go like use the tpc screen keyboard justto typ my stuff cozmost of my keys are retarded.. notmost labut umber of them...soannoying...

bht the..so ong i neva post.. letsnjust postva quick one...havei said abt crezawaeds? well it sucked..ut i got nie stuff!.. mnms, gummy rose .. bouquetbof bluevroses and chocolate!hehe...

ok.. midyrs going on... eng done, malayndone.. both so hard... as in really lor.,, haiz... ive studied bio... last yr sfuff.. now, i gota conctrate in chem.. science .. gahh.. hate it... nvm lor...

i really wan to lesrn tenis le.. sombodytach me... heard its really ex... sigh.. o.k.. this sucs imgonna stop here. byuez.

2007-04-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

went out with gad and syira just now.. was supposed to be me, gad and mira... the three pioneer peeps.. haha.. ended up miar couldnt make it... so since we were still hungry, the others of us went out.. fun ah... tripped gad a lot of times.. stillll cannot beat syira... eat at long johns... the chicken very small! then went to the ice skating place... bleahh.. ok actually it was a good day but im angry now because of something... tellll you later... anywayy.. then eat icecream... fun ah.. stayed arnd the anugerah place, hoping to hear some songs... but nooooo.... yeah... but that was funny.... eh eh.. Supermann... Emphasize....wad is emphasize in malay? Menekankan! hahahah ok nvmmmmm....then went home... it was raining a lot...

oh yeah... in the bus i saw this old man like very weird ah... he does a lot of gestures... curious... then i realised that he was actualllly like showing where the bus wld turn.... then he wld nod a lot..... haha... then if got thunder he wld like pray with his hands together... funny.... then the auntie beside me spoke to me in chinese and said abt the flooding road we were in... it was realllly scary you know... the flood i mean, not the auntie... haha.. didnt understand chinese but just like nodded and gestured to the waters.... nice ah the auntie... then when i was getting off, i smiled at her before getting off and she smiled back.. haha....

oh yeah... then i had to walk a long way to my block.. which meant that i wld have to be in the rain for some time... funny ah... i only had my pullover.. citadel one ah... so i just put it on and yeah.. covered almost allll my body except for a bit of my skirt.... i purposely shorten my skirt ah... so like other than a third of my body, i was dryso my legs were like soaking but the rest were okayy hhaa... so on my skirt there was this line where the skirt is dry and wet... as in a line ah.... nvmmmm... got home... wasted time.. and now im doing my work... dammit la.. my family can like talk so freaking long .,. arghh

ok this is wad i need to vent out

WTF... idiots! you are an embarrassment to the whole of the school and it was disgusting... how dare you insult my L! fuck you mann, losers...

ive got more but nvmm

2007-03-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

okayy.. lets talk abt friday.... haha...

wellll we practiced for a long time before we lined up.. so like we were the last grp... so we waited... i guess because me and gad and everyone were so excited that we were being ultra retarded... dance malay dance haha... then met amirah... haha.. sh made me sing to her.. well, at first i was supposed to sing Snow White Queen for the audition and i told quite a number of pple that... but then on that day i had sore throat (after eating A lot of fried spicy macaroni - coz i was hungry and it was good!] and somehow i wasnt too comfortable with SWQ... as in throughout the whole time ive been singing Lacrymosa... nice right? that song... yeahh.. so like with my sore throat i wld be doing SWQ injustice... as in... i thought we were gonna sing the whole thing so yeah.. if i had to go even lower because of the sore throat, it wont be nice at all..

anyway, i sang to mira the hardest part of the song coz she said they wont want to hear the whole song, just the best parts.. so i yeah, sang those parts... and mira liked it... then we were singing together.. that was nice.. haha... well, thanks amirah, that kinda lifted my spirits a bit.. haha... yeah we sang like the heaven... haha.. yeah.. then after that we were waiting and watiting.. from doing crazy stuff to doing my hmk ahaa..went to mobil to be Ricola.. which helped me a bit... yeah...

at 625, it was our turn.. i sang first... damn it was scary... not too much but yeah... i could hear myself quivering in my singing actually..yeah,... but it was nice... ;] then we danced.. damn short ah... but im glad we tried... haha.... ok talking abt that willll take a long time and im tired so i shant say it...

and guess wad! i got in! as in just found out today, which is rather fast! the dance im not sure... but i realy hope so! haha.. im happy! i just want to be up there and just sing... yeah.. im happy! haha.. dunno wad to say... yeah.. really dunno wad to say now... got nothing more/... haha....

-;-

haha you know wad, i was trying on my no3 skirt just now and it fit! ahah.. coz during camp suddenly it was so hard to fit... haha.. i guess now coz the whole week ive been eating little and running hell a lot... haha... and intensive dancing for a week could have helped haha.... ok.. just had to say that.. haha.... ;]

2007-03-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

march camp

actually my best camp .. i think... well.. did fun stuff for once ... oh yeah ROCK AND ROll... haha... ok lets see

first day.. noting much.. had field cooking tho... quite fun.. the mee tastes funny.. a bit the tasteless unless add stuff la... but nice overall...first day wasnt so eventful at all.. except for the auction la.. actually more of the time me and gad were doing B4 that... she cannot do hand stand la! nor a kartwheel... haha.. fun .. then we did the ROCK AND ROll !! haha..oh yeah got marching.. missed marching.. nice ah...then at night was nice too... but got very tired the next day..

hmm.. b/t c... hmm

i DID NOT... i repeat DID NOT expect the orieenteering to be that way.... you know what? im gonna crapabout here and its not gonna be nice.. actually im not so bitchy now coz ive gotten over it... but seriously ah.. fuck them la.. dont you know the diff between nc and ns?? ok fine it was totally intensive orieenteering and most probably better than the lessons that we had that didnt help us afterall... yeah.. but act big for wad sia.. look at us with that look some more! assholes la.. fine ah wan to teach us new stuff and waste our precious time, and use it to look so KNOWLEDGABLE and wadeva .. yeah.. for once i saw wj being so angry and soap even cursed.. haha... i dun mind running or wadeva la.. but they make it seem like WE are THEIR cadets.. puh~lease.. so angry la... snr cadets.. wadehell...then especialllly that guy... he is SO fake la... and wads with the accent man.. talk to the other guys got singlish... fake.. the other guy a bit better .. but stillll can like raise one eyebrow that type ah.. he more normal... like... ok lets see... my closest description of him wld be of... some guy clt ah.... yeahh.. then wj was like seriously cursing them allll that la... she ddint even wan to answer that asshole and kept that sour face... haha... i had to answer... and he like try to talk to us... ill be the one replying ah... but goshh.. they are SO fake.... and the girl(oh im not letting of any of them] ah.. the whole time she got that same bored look... wahlau you think we happy you here ah? yeah.. went back and bitch abt them to the rest.... oh yeah.. i was sleeping thru their lessons... soap also.. a bit the obvious right?..

oh gosh we stank

and then after that say that they had EARNed the right to call them by their stoopid names..wahlau i wan to laugh ah.. then they had their test... at least they didnt take that long to finsh it up ah... talked with maam and sir... blah blah....

had cadets night... nice ah... and tho ours was not that smooth.. it was nice... i was kinda low at first but i got a bit crazier after that...yeah.. then after that... well

oh please, why dont you speak for yourself?

stayed angry for quite some time... blah blah... then finsh go bathe and sleep.. im missing the gblock shower now... i tell you ah... if your back pain or like shoulder pain .. muscles one ah... go to that shower... cold still nice.. coz the shower very hard then like massage.... yeah... then slept beside gad on the platform there... nice... i was so tired i simply slept there.. ignored when gad wanted to say something to me.. yeah... then we slept

till 630

everyone woke up late... dunno if got others la... then like i thought it was 53o but it was actually 630 ..then yeah... pt... parades... blah... short day ah.. book out...

went home after sending gad... me, gad and my sis actualllly walked to redhill to buy bubble tea... haha...its my youngest sis by the way... yeah... then thoguht my mom like gonna scold us when she was standing at the hill there waiting for us... then its coz the car keys were with us.. haha... then went home... yea lor... now have to do hmk... haha...

sighh... it was our last camp... sadly a lot of food got wasted... bleahss... ok la.. thats enough... nitez!

2007-03-09T21:22:00.000+08:00

ok lets seee..... ok CT!!! yeah.. improved... welll quite a lot.. haha,... ok la wont brag but yeah... ahemm got cough*three*cough*A1scough*... hehe... im happy la ...like nver had i gotten so good and luck la ha..... but yeah... finalllly saw my mom happy... but now she not happy haha... ok let me tellll you the long story...

okayy.. follllowed asilah and gadd to xray her arm (which is so cool!] haha.. camwhored in the toilet with gadd while waiting.. haha... the door was locked at one pt and we had to go the long way to get out.. haha... then went to BR to get some stuff.. took a long time there for nothing.... then went BK at cityhall... niceeee.... but the BK so stingy... give so little turkey ham wadeva.... yeah.. spent a lot of time with gadd and asilah for the first time... i dun go out much you see... shut up! okayy.. then after that... went to CK!!! tried on expensive shoes with gadd.. OMG i can wear heels!! as in i can actuay fit into them... i should never hate my body.. i should do more to love my body coz after allll it reay is not that bad... i just get really annoyed by my gfamiy a the time... fcuk them la ha...

yeahhh tried on shoes!! should go shoe shopping with gadd and asilah one day... haha... ok after that we were like going to a lot of places.. oh yeah bought for myself this puma file.. nice design some more... yep... then walked arnd a lot... my mom was like calllling me at the end but like yeah... she very angry at me now... so what did she do? she confiscated my phone... not too bad coz i hardly use my phone other than for the music... well thats rather important too.... but yeah.. i think she will be like lecturing me soon...oh gosh gimme a break! but overallll im glad i went... got to spend time with my frens, window shop, and tried shoes! happy!! haha

yeahh... tho much more stuff has been happening, as you know me, im lazy so yeah, nitez!\

oh yeah..did i tell you???? saw this guy who looks like L!!!! and he s jap la.... ;]]]]]

2007-02-20T22:09:00.000+08:00

its so funny how much time me and my family spent together...
as in.. we HARDLy ever go out at all... much less together...
it was kinda absurd... the amt of places we went this CNY holiday and last week's sunday morning...

well, we went to the cemetery (my grandma's grave), the goats farm, the museum, and food courts... all in that green van... i guess im gonna miss sitting in that hot container.. haha... playing "hey macaroni sailormoon.." and heart attacks... haha... but yeah... spent so much time with my family... finished pretty much all my hmk on friday.. so like yeah.. finishing your hmk does give you much more time after that...a bit too much actually and after taht... sleep

its also funny to realise how fast time passes by.. like i didnt realise taht 24 hrs .. it still felt liek it was 24 hrs ago.. haha.. well... dunno la ha..

how i miss the days when i was so busy.. happyly busy... that is an oxymoron im telling you... but yeah... obviously what im abt to say is abt icep... yep.. i was delightfully busy at that moment... sadly, i lost a lot of stuff, made a lot of mistakes, and bleahs... but i was happy... i seriously miss those days.. and come to think of it, it has been a few months since then...

you know... ever since sch started, ive been looking forward to fridays... and the weekends when i can just relax... but time passes so fast and its already monday... so fast... we are already in the 2nd month in the year and its ending soon... olevels are coming soooooon... i dunno la..

i dun really know waht im saying but yeah..wells... i gtg... crappabout

2007-02-16T01:48:00.000+08:00

ok its 150 am... just now was total defence day... stupid la.. ok i wasnt totally late.. but ifreaking forgot to bringquite some stuff.. IMportant stuff... like my total defence badge.... my cookie... gosh... blah blah.. oh yeah.. hardly anybody acually followed the ration thingy.... but for me i good... eat wadeva laft over sweets from the day before AFter school ends....

well then had nc... boring.. discuss crezawards and stuff..im a bit down abt that... macam.. takde semangat lagi... abeh diorang selalu distract diri sendiri.. makne nyer diaorang tak begitu kesah tentang bende in kan? jadi aku pun discouraged ah.. bleah...jadi aku sekarang pun macam malas nak choreograph or wadeva... tapi bukannyer aku boleh suddenly tarik diri dari ini.... sighh .. ok nvm la.. we got thru the songs... but dunno... shrugs.... malas lei.... dah takde semangat... diaorang pun menggeramkan... nvm ah...

ok.. then common test.... ss was hard... farina actually did the qns before la.. it was frm powerpack.. yeah.. lucky ass... yeah... malay was okayy.. i guess... actually no.. coz my bahasa is like shit... then my eng.... hard ah... the weightage of the qns very high.. cant afford to even get one wrong.. but i think ill do much worst than that....

oh yeah.. today.. ms azlin insulted us yet again... did the exact thing i was hoping she didnt... we dunno wads wrong and she is acting like that.. well, we're all gonna die for lit common test.. then mrs rupa came in and we explained everything that happned on that day to her.... mr loh also came in... yeah..

do your part
do our part
so that nodbody can
point finger at you..

that was repeated ah.. but yeah.. i shld appreciate him more... we are like lost children ah.. then onli him backing us up.... well never thought ms azlin wld do this to us.. shrugs... but yeah... what the hell did we do sia? whatever that happened in class that day is not enough to back up how she's treating us now... even mr loh was taken aback... oh wells... im just gonna do my lit hmk now.... see... put effort... then kena scolded for nothing... bleahh.. oh wells... gtg...

now i realised why i like evanescence so much.. its coz most of the songs fits me perfectly... and the lyrics... are similar to the type i used to write...

2007-02-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

ok today was... a bit boringg...as in the run ah... walked twice.. couldnt be bothered... left yuzhou (sorry girl if i spelt you name wrongly!) after some time... she wldnt walk... then i tell you ah... if you walk a bit, for sure you will be left very far back.. i just walked a little then yuzhou already so front... yeah... then got back there... haha.. then ran to the milo truck with Lydia... we ran to the milo truck faster than we ran in the run la.. hhahaa... then drank three cups altogether... then ate htodog buns! hungry okayy... actually ate one.. then somebody dun wan then i take... ok more like i saw it not eaten then i ask who's then eunice say can eat... haha... but i shared it with yuzhou!... haha.....

then.. fry won... shocked... the judges must be gundus la.. but whatever.. anyway bronte's cheer was nice.. pankhurt's also.. then blah blah... then dismiss... then me, farina, syira and gadd actually went to changi... fun ah... we studied at macs there even tho got so many big signs to tell us to "REFRAIN" from studying there... stupid... but yeah.. it understandable la if there were a lot of pple and they shoo us away... but at that time not many pple so yeah... instead of Farina, Gadd was teaching me amaths.. finally i understand! not say all and stuff but i understand the basic.... hehe... shouldnt haf slept on the first lesson of that chapter... oh yeah i remember mr loh asked me a qn during class... and i was like huh?.. coz i was half asleep... ok fine ASLEEP... then its like he said "pay attention ah!" then i was like thinking "dammit la.. i trying me hardest right now but i still sleeping!" yeah...

then i finished 16.2 and 16.3! m16 later la ha....then we went back home... saw some nice bags in minitoons.. saw a kitty bank too! i need.. haha... then after that.. went cityhall... farina had to go by there to take straight bus home.. she clever la.. never bring ezlink... haha... then went to the body shop.. they got new perfumes! in nice nice bottles! in promotion too! so nice!! i wan a collection of them!! i LIKE the body shop! hehe... so like after 14 feb it will all be 19.90... ex lei! got one its 9.90! 10 bus diff lei!! hehe....

ok tmw... common test... really doesnt feel like it.... like just finish x country then common test... blehh... yeah... then like need to study onli for ss.... boreenngg... then tmw get back home by one.. do nothing after that... so early can go home but for what?... oh yeah.. some pple go out for dates tmw.. hhaah... okla... im gonna study ss.... dun expect anything much to get into my brain but yeah...

i like the body shop perfumes... *hint hint* ... ok nvm.. still got a LONG way to go...

2007-02-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

ok... today.. went to masjid then listened to kuliah subuh... officially woke up 30 mins before the end of it... couldnt help it la.. even tho i slept for like so freaking long before that... then went to eat at macs at my grandma place there... then went to kubur.. go my another grandma kubur... then went to goat farm... smelly smelly goat farm.... fed the goats... tasted the goaty milk... and then went home... funny sia... all the way to like 12 plus then we got home...

ok that was wad i did today... fun? boring? wadeva..

read my mom's diary yesterday.. her diary when i was seven.. had events like when tutik died... sadd... and i remembered one line or so .."i hate it when my husband ignores me. i felt useless. i buseid myself doing other things"... oh wells...

2007-02-10T21:23:00.000+08:00

ok today was... badd..

coz we lost the bahas... it was like... dissappointing la... coz its like... we worked so hard.. each and everyone of us... damn shit la... if onli i did the perimeter properly... dan sad la.. then some stupid pple from the floor ask us abt our perimeter and that it is "terserong"... like hell la... i felt like replying to that stupid person la... oh yeah.. one of the opposite pembahas said something like we shld not go against the pencadang and the mauduk that society that doesnt read is the society that wont succeed... like HELLO.. this is a DEBATE.. and we wld HAVE to debate, DUHHH... i got nothing against the hmt pple la.. as in no personal fueds but then i felt so angry at them.. and like.. their stuff didint even link up to the society.. as in it all linked to POLITICs.. the thing we WHICH we obviously weak in... but onli POLITICs wont bring the society up.. oh wells whatever.. its overr...

but i had fun like making the video.. make face was HUGE.. haha.. yah.. then throughout the bahas, as in meetings and stuff.. i actually got closer to farina, iylia and hanisah.. pple whom ive never really been close to.. as in frens la. but not really close... then throughout this short 1 and a half weeks of work, ive been speaking more malay then i could ever.. and i felt good abt that...

oh yeah.. asilah also was in bahas... she did well la... and she could speak malay.. .. as a whole its quite fun ah, bahas... i wish we could have gottten to the next and next round... so that we can work harder and be better in malay.. as in this really encourages working as a team and it helps our malay mann... yeah.. so now i shld think better for those who bahas and the deabating itself.. coz its not easy to go up there and speak your mind... and 5 minutes is NOT long.. coz theres always pple who just dun getit.... and yeah.. where got bahas go to the front and talk one???

then i went home.... went to popular at je and took bus 99.. just slept in the bus la... then right.. when i got off, i realised that my cat was not where i hung it, as in in my bag... so my first reaction was to run after the bus.,.. then the freaking next bus stop so far away!! i was like running... but then i couldnt catch up la.. then i run run run.. looking stupid la.... then when the bus left the next bus stop, i stoped running.... i was like... i felt so stupid.... left the cat in the bus.... i just squat down on the pavement and like caught my breath... then i just stood up and shouted "FREAKKK" yeah... like arghhhhh... then i walkked to the other side and was like thinking of the times when i had the cat... very short but i liked that cat a lot... never seen it anywhere else... then i opened my bag to put my wallet, and there it was, my cat, deeper in my bag... i felt so stupid.. but i had half the mind to jsut sujud syukur at that place at that time... but seriously, i was happy.,.. but it then turned to unhappiness... i felt so stupid.. sighh....

then when i got home.. i just ate and then slpet from 2 all the way to 7... yep.. and now, my correction tape which i just bought is spoiled.. dammit...

wells... i gtg.... sleep again....

2007-02-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

a LOT of things can happen in a week and more..

ok i haven been posting at all... coz im too busy and when ig ot the time, i still do other things.. like sleeping... haha

ok wells.. i got a cat!!! act toy onli.. finally!!!! went to bugis with naBiHAH.. fun ah.. she walk very fast... yeah.. bought a freaky looking cat whihc my mom thought was scary... i liked it tho.. and yeah... brought it to sch on monday... never seen christine smiled like that before... my cat was on the table then she suddenly look at it then smiled then apt the head of my cat.... hehe... i LOVE my cat!! and it can sit!! then when it sits its like a kitten... so nice!!! feels like one too... oh yeah.. then met a white cat while having nc... so friendly la the cat!! i like!!! im so happy.. then go home... saw two peeps whom i know... was having my kitten in my pocket.. it can fit!! haha... anyway i saw "stranger".. haha.. stranger finally smile... oi "stranger", smile more la.. look nicer... dun be so emo!, im the emo one... haha... saw another person.. long time no see... i like my kitten!!

oh yeah, then sue wei gave me a box with the army stuff.. like can display stuff wadeva la.. i LOVE it! nice seyy... she so sweet! haha... ok thenwad else happened?

oh YES...a LALAT went into my eye on tues morning... then the whole day my eye pain.. my left eye la... then now i got eye infection.. then siew ling very noisy.. make me go doctor.. then now i cannot wear contacts.. and my mom not letting me get contacts ANY MORE.... i never liked glasses... bahh.. stupid lalat..

then oh yeah.. im in bahas... debate... quite cool ah... this sat ah... scary sia... but i think can la.. but to talk crap for like 5 minutes very hard lei! ok actually its damn easy for me since im known to be freaking talkative.. but to talk FACTS and SERIOUS stuff .. bleahh.. and yeah.. in *gulps* perfect malay!!!! aaaaaahhhhhh.. hahaha.. well yeah... i think i can get thru it la but ... ??.. just dun wanna screw up la haa...

and yes.. i did my amaths hmks... im prud of myself! hehe... my 15.5 and m15 done all correct...
;} happy la... then i did it so neat some more... cehbahh...

and yes.. SINGAPORE WON!!! hahahaha... i NEVER watch soccer but i made this an exception... haha... cehh... my family planning to welcome the lions sia... i dunno... i guess ill go.. haha... im starting to like soccer... stupid "stranger" dun wan to teach me soccer... i wont go ACSI just for that you kuku! haha... heard that ACSI IB the uniform very ugly.. haha... and yeah.. the Thais cannot make the wave.... the kallang wave belongs to KALLANG.. hheeh... ok lamee...and yeah... i think LLIONEL should get himself bigger shorts or get himself briefs to play in... keep pulling his short shorts up la... haha... but he has a cute butt ahah.. ok nvm la... i think i talk a lot already.. ok.. back to malay hmk.. forgot i got malay compo.. doing like last minute now.. hehe... ok byuez

2007-01-21T16:37:00.000+08:00

i can never ever have totally what i want... thats natural and that always happens...

i dream of one thing and god always gives me what i want, only 50%... ok fine.. thank you god i love you lots... you always give me more than i deserve.. actually now that i think about it, i really shouldnt complain.... as in, who am i to think that i deserve more... further more, me getting this things which i think are not enough, is actually much more than anyone gets.. like if theres someone poor, theres someone even poorer.. so if i get this bit, i should be grateful because there are people who dun get even a bit of it...

okla... i was a bit sad when my mom was screaming just now... as in.. this is my first time changing my room and i wan to love it... but yeah, i can onli really do that when i get out of this house and do it all by myself... its okayla... as in... okay lets see... no matter what right, i always have to make do... im now using my sis's, diyanah, table... its disgusting... well actually the table is ok and yeah... but jsut coming from her is DISGUSTING... i even wan to at least paint this table but then yeah... my mom went all nagging and screaming... wadeva la..[at this pt kaka farah steals the com and says hi!]

ok anyway... i am now happy!! haha.. put up my magnetic noticeboard and like i put like the magnets (which i decorated with my cat tm and heart tm) i like it!! i even put the magnetic cat on it! the one that debbie gave me last yr.. and also my small goblet that maam wenting gave... nice! i like it!! now to find space to out my books and wadeva crap.. but for now im likeing my space here... hha

its so funny... ok i know im crapping too much abt my room and bed area... yeah.. i think its gonna work out... thank you god.. eheh... ok la.. i shoudl stop blogging and do my work.. im left with ss and hist.. a BIT of hist onli and ss... well.. im happy... just need touch ups and stuff...

;} thank you god...

haha

2007-01-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

i guess the only time i will ever get my dream room is when i move out of here... as in... i dun like blue.. with grey it doesnt look any better and my stuff are mostly gonna be white... not me at all... and if i were to add in my favourite colours, it will just clash.. no fun... although i really dun mind the colour combination now... as in its light blue with pale grey and lostsa white.. i just dun feel myself.. it will be wierd tho if i were to have purple walls, with red stuff and black bed... and some silver around.. well maybe it can work out if i take careful shades of the colours but then oh wells... actually i can add in black in my room here... or at least my space... but then my dad bought this rug which is really more of a rag... as in the colour is beige plus light blue and dark green.. it goes alright but then it just looks like country area or so... like not me... but now i seriously cannot add in any red at all... purple maybe coz it might go well with my bed (grey ) but then it would go with the walls... ok this is like my first time really cahging my room so i wan it to look good.. somehting i will be happy with instead of the normal i have been having... sadly, its not going my way ...

well, i just took some time analysing my room.. i took out the rag and damn it! it looks much better.... its because of the colour beige.. once i introduced beige, the amount of colours get VERY limited.. black ill be out of place as it doesnt match with beige as i could be with white... so, no beige... most probably im gonna have things which are light brown but ill try not to add in more colours.. but then brown... hmm... dunno.. ill try... coz most of my stuff are black and i'd like to keep it that way... and i know one thing which i hope i can include... a single small vase with a rose in it... well obviously the rose wld no be something pple wld give me but ill get it myself... actually i haven experiment more with colours but ill definately put in some black, silver and a small bit of red (that rose) ... i dun think i can fit in purple at all it will be totally out.... oh yeah,... i shld get a rug which is like black and white combined... i also wan a bean couch... anybody know where to get them?.. and yeah... ill have a small collection of catstuff... hehehe... and ill save up money to get perfumes from the body shop... their colours are so nice! and then i can have like a cute collection of that too! and yeah, a chest full of accessories! well i do have some but ill buy more! or i can hang my stuff not like miny manequins(spl?)..... haha...

well that all takes money.. so like i pretty much have to buy a kitty bank to save money! (i dun like pigs.. so i shall call my "piggy bank" KITTY BANK! hehehe...) anybody knows where to get them?.. well most probably i can find it in a toy shop.. haha...

that sounds like i should shop more.. and go out more often... however, i still need to concentrate on my school work and stuff and no longer abt my room.. thus, i need to do these things fast... olevels are like so near.... im a little scared.... prelims also... i cant believe im sec 4.... time goes damn fast sia! well.. i jsut have to do my best in anything i do for now... tho its easier said than done...

i need help in my studies too! my only strengths are in maths and malay.... im gonna combine my sciences... i dun plan to bring them for jc anyways... or poly... i dun like sci.. never did... hen my humanities... i stronger in lit i guess.. but i need constant practice.. my ss and history are ... well.. not good at all.. but a bit better than my sciences... well, once i combine my sci it will be a bit easier for me but then i need to really SCORE for it... so i cant hold back.. i know i can do it actually, that is if i put in my best... but if i dun like the subject at all, how can i score... remember akutsu? POT... he does well in what he hates coz in order to justify him hating it, he has to be better than it.. as in.. if u have a rival, ou have to be better than him right?.. something like it... oh wells.. sciences.. bleah.. humanities.. bleah.. but il still work hard! gambaremas! hehe

something like that

2007-01-20T14:09:00.000+08:00

for the past week, ive been wanting to blog very badly, but then... no time.. as in seriously... goshhh

anyway i clean up my room... as in REALLy clean until kosong lor... yeah.. found really cool stuff... ok let me see... i found... my mom's engagement ring (really nice lei... not like the other s that i usually see), my part notebook which i lost two years ago., 60 BUX!! found it under some container.. like ten ten ten dollars lei... wel, gave it to my mom then she used it to buy KFC for all of us, including my aunt who helped A LOT... and also... i found my old wallet.. the wallet i used in sec 2... that wallet was a birthday gift from my mom.. loves it... well its red, black and white! niceee... but even better... guess wad i found in that wallet.. 50 buX US lor!!! which is abt 85 bux singapore... not bad right?... theres a lot of stuff i need and wan to buy but my mom asked for that money to be given to her... oh wells... i hope she buys me an ezlink soon... gahh... anyway i wan to buy a bag sia....

ok nvm.. my room now is blue! light blue..iv never really liked blue .. well, its not my fav.. yeah then i have two bed in my room now.. like very high then can have tables under it... well i got no tables yet.. so im like doing my hmk on the floor... very cold and my ass hurts! well nvm...

oh yeah then i visited my cousin who just gave birth to a cute little boy named Rafiel.. so cute!! then he smiled when i kissed his cheek! so cute!! ...ok yeah...

then throughout this week ive been working hard for my hmk and stuff... late nights with nescafe.... im sick of coffee now... oh yeah wait.. have i talked abt pds? it ROCKED!!! well we did it in the parade sq with the lights all off... cool right?? yeah.. loved it... ok nvm... then another big thing that happened was the cca day... nice but thne it was raining... oh yeah then we got lazer rifles!! cool yooo... haha... well.. i dunno wad else to talk abt tho i actually wanted to talk much more....

oh yeah i lost 3 kg! ok thats not much but yeah! hehe... ok.. then wad else... ok i better start saving or wadva coz i got a lot of stuff i wan to buy... bleahs.. ok la . enough..

iloveL

2007-01-07T10:46:00.000+08:00

i actually wanted to post this yesterday but i was kinda lazy...

ok anyway yesterday.. went to SP for the open house.. haha.. well actually more were supposed to go but in the end onli me and Dlite went.. just wonder wonder arnd.. got some brochures and stuff.. saw onli makcik and her fren.. then went to tour the business school.. pretty cool la... but half way we got separated from our grp so like we missed out some stuff... Dlite is crazy over milo la.. well i dunno wad sch to aim for after olevels you know but... im just gonna do my best so i can have a wider selection of schools..

yeah.,. then went to JE.. eat at the KoreanKitchen... not too bad la.. in fact the veges were nice.. but ex la.. shared with D la.. then like saw some ------- from ---------... fill in the blanks yourself... they are like so ARghh and EWW and pukes blood!! ok one of them is a nice person la but the rest is like --------... goshhh... then they were like with that ---- ----..... i just HAD to tell somebody man.. called debbie la.. haha... then after that go home... wanted to meet my sistas at bugis but then very late i might as well not... oh wells...

haha... like funny sia.. i cant work hard for nuts... but i shall try... ok so i shldnt be using too much of my com for not so good stuff like blogging.. but hahaha... ok nvm... ok la... bye

2007-01-06T00:24:00.000+08:00

ok lets see... QUEST was weird.. i remember the third grp though, the onli grp of sec ones that answered me... yeahh.. then like it was so freaking hard to determine the placings la... goshh...but it was fun! haha.. finally a spec and doing this as one..

ok anyway... was sick the day before so i half way never go sch... go geylang coz my mom and sis wanted to buy tudung.. good thing i wasnt that sick at that time.. on and off thing you know?.. yeah... then go cut hair... at shirley mah... freaky sia.. i was so scared coz my hair was NOT good at that time until i was like huffing and puffing... like i was a bit the angry la.. then the haidresser saw me in distress and she help me style it.. much better after that ah.. then got sick again...then ok... slept alot.. got a call from my Darling Shermain.. haha.. yeah... then sleeeeeepp..

woke up late.. come a bit late.. was changing in nc room when the national anthem started.. good thing finish changing already la.. but i was stuck in the room until end of morning assembly.. did quest... then had makay class... then had assembly then had lunch then had campfire....

anyway, here are the comments on my hair hehe... "like 1970s"-gadis "reminds me of when we were in primary school!! nice"-amirah "bimbotic"-debbie "like anime"-my sis "cute" -by quite a number of pple... funny sia.. i am NOt cute! im not a bimbo either! funny.... yalah.. bimbotic... wadehell mann.. i dunno la ha..actually i dun really wan to look totally bimbotic coz after all i am a spec in ncc... yep.. but ya la... i think i Can work with this hairstyle.. really reminds me of me when i was in primary sch lei... like almost bob.. funny.. feel like uploading pics of when i was young and stuff... but this one MUST put password... haha.. that reminds me.. Gadd took my pics from the us thingy for the presentation.. didnt ask but NVM GADIS>>> haha..

anyway PDS!!! WOOOOHOOO... haha... im glad la ha... it went on well... the part as music like a bit the funny at first and i think they kanchiong so they kinda went a bit fast... then when they went fast they cannot shout properly.. but they did great anyways... part bs we great too! as in seriously.. im happy for the both of the parts la..then CHARLIEEEEEEE!!!! wahhh... im glad la.. well got most of the timings right and stuff... then like i can HEAR the comments by the sec ones...i think its good to freefall seriously RIGHT in front of themmm... haha... then with all the light off.. COOLLL.... actually they left one on and i thouhgt it really creates the ambience lei.. but then they switch it off... but nvm.. still great... well.. wahh.. im gonna miss pds.... haha.. ok maybe not now coz my body is sore... but yeah.. laterr... and thank god it didnt rain when it was our turn!! wahhh and it was also the first time we got to do it in the parade sq.... so happy now... i need to sleep man wads the time now sia... ok la.. ill blog more some other time... nitez